Bulimia Anatenga Zaka khumi kuchokera ku Moyo Wanga - Osapanga Zolakwitsa Zanga

Zamkati

• Lowani bulimia
• Kupitirira kuyendetsa
• Zaka khumi, zapita
• Kutenga: Osapanga cholakwa changa
• Funafunani chithandizo

Mbiri yanga yokhala ndi vuto lakudya idayamba ndili ndi zaka 12. Ndinali wokondwerera kusukulu yapakati. Nthawi zonse ndimakhala wocheperako kuposa anzanga akusukulu - wamfupi, wowonda khungu, komanso wocheperako. Ndili mugiredi lachisanu ndi chiwiri, ndidayamba kukula. Ndinali kupeza mainchesi ndi mapaundi pathupi langa latsopano. Ndipo ndinalibe nthawi yeniyeni yothana ndi zosinthazi nditavala siketi yayifupi patsogolo pa sukulu yonse pamisonkhano yapa pep.

Matenda anga anayamba ndikuletsa kudya zakudya zambiri. Ndinkayesa kudya chakudya cham'maŵa ndisanavutike kudya. Mimba yanga inkangoluka ndikulira tsiku lonse. Ndimakumbukira kuti ndinkachita manyazi ngati m'kalasi munali bata mokwanira kuti ena amve phokoso lawo. Mosalephera, ndimabwerera kunyumba masana nditatha kuchita masewera olimbitsa thupi mosasangalatsa. Ndinkadya chilichonse chomwe ndingapeze. Ma cookie, maswiti, tchipisi, ndi mitundu yonse yazakudya zopanda pake.

Lowani bulimia

Magawo okhathamirawa adayamba kuwongoleredwa. Ndinapitirizabe kudya pang'ono masana kenako ndikudya kwambiri madzulo. Zaka zingapo zinadutsa, ndipo kadyedwe kanga kanasinthasintha. Sindinaganizepo zoponya mpaka nditawona kanema wa Lifetime wonena za mtsikana yemwe anali ndi bulimia. Ntchitoyi inkawoneka yosavuta. Nditha kudya chilichonse chomwe ndimafuna komanso momwe ndimafunira, kenako ndikungochotsa chimbudzi mosavuta.

Nthawi yoyamba yomwe ndidatsuka ndidali m'kalasi la 10th nditadya theka la mphika wa ayisikilimu. Izi sizosadabwitsa, chifukwa matenda ambiri a bulimia amayamba mwa azimayi azaka zakubadwa mpaka 20. Sizinali zovuta kuchita. Nditachotsa ma calories okhumudwitsa, ndidadzimva wopepuka. Sindikutanthauza chabe kutanthauzira kwakuthupi kwa mawu, mwina.

Mukudziwa, bulimia idakhala njira yolimbana ndi ine. Zidatha kukhala zopanda chakudya chambiri monga zimathandizira kuwongolera. Ndinali ndi nkhawa zambiri pambuyo pake kusekondale. Ndinali nditayamba kuyendera makoleji, ndinali kutenga ma SAT, ndipo ndinali ndi chibwenzi chomwe chimandinamiza. Panali zinthu zambiri m'moyo wanga zomwe sindinathe kuzisamalira. Ndinkamwa mowa mwauchidakwa ndi kudya mofulumira kwambiri. Ndiye ndimapeza kuthamanga kwakukuluko, kwabwino nditatha kuchotsa zonsezo.

Kupitirira kuyendetsa

Palibe amene amawoneka kuti adazindikira bulimia yanga. Kapena ngati atero, sananene chilichonse. Panthaŵi ina pamene ndinali kumaliza maphunziro anga kusukulu yasekondale, ndinangotsika mapaundi 102 pa chimango changa pafupifupi 5’7. Pomwe ndimafika ku koleji, ndimakhala ndikuluma ndikutsuka tsiku lililonse. Panali zosintha zambiri zomwe zidadza ndikusamuka kunyumba, kukachita maphunziro aku koleji, ndikuthana ndi moyo makamaka ndekha kwa nthawi yoyamba.

Nthawi zina ndimaliza ntchito yoledzera kangapo patsiku. Ndikukumbukira ndikupita ku New York City ndi anzanga ndikufunafuna bafa nditadya pizza wambiri. Ndimakumbukira ndili mchipinda changa chogona nditatha kudya bokosi la makeke ndikudikirira atsikana omwe anali pansi pa holo kuti asiye kuyandikira kubafa kuti ndikatsuke. Zinafika poti sindimafunitsitsanso, ngakhale. Ndinkasamba nditadya chakudya chofanana ngakhalenso zokhwasula-khwasula.

Ndimadutsa munthawi zabwino komanso nthawi zoyipa. Nthawi zina milungu kapena miyezi ingapo inkadutsa ndikangotsuka kumene. Ndipo padzakhala nthawi zina - nthawi zambiri ndikakhala ndikuwonjezera kupsinjika, monga nthawi yomaliza - pomwe bulimia imadzutsa mutu wake wonyansa. Ndikukumbukira kutsuka pambuyo pa kadzutsa ndisanamalize maphunziro anga kukoleji. Ndimakumbukira kuti ndinali ndi nthawi yoyipa kwambiri yoyeretsa ndikufunafuna ntchito yanga yoyamba.

Apanso, nthawi zambiri inali yokhudza kuwongolera. Kulimbana. Sindingathe kulamulira chilichonse m'moyo wanga, koma ndimatha kuwongolera gawo limodzi ili.

Zaka khumi, zapita

Ngakhale zotsatira zakanthawi yayitali za bulimia sizidziwika kwathunthu, zovuta zimatha kuphatikizira chilichonse kuyambira kuchepa kwa madzi m'thupi komanso nyengo zosasinthasintha mpaka kukhumudwa komanso kuwola kwa mano. Mutha kukhala ndi vuto la mtima, monga kugunda kwamtima kosafunikira kapena ngakhale kulephera kwa mtima. Ndimakumbukira kuti ndimakhala ndikuimirira nthawi zambiri panthawi yanga yoyipa ya bulimia. Tikayang'ana m'mbuyo, zimawoneka zowopsa modabwitsa. Panthawiyo, sindinathe kudziletsa ngakhale ndinali ndi mantha ndi zomwe zimakhudza thupi langa.

Pambuyo pake ndidamuuza mwamuna wanga tsopano za mavuto anga akudya. Anandilimbikitsa kuti ndiyankhule ndi dokotala, zomwe sindinachite mwachidule. Njira yanga yochira inali yayitali chifukwa ndimayesetsa kuchita zambiri ndekha. Anamaliza kukhala masitepe awiri kutsogolo, sitepe imodzi kubwerera.

Zinali pang'onopang'ono kwa ine, koma nthawi yomaliza yomwe ndimatsuka inali pomwe ndinali 25. Inde. Ndizo zaka 10 za moyo wanga kwenikweni kutsetsereka. Zigawozo sizinkachitika nthawi imeneyo, ndipo ndinali nditaphunzira maluso ena kuti andithandize kuthana ndi nkhawa. Mwachitsanzo, tsopano ndimathamanga pafupipafupi. Ndimawona kuti zimandilimbikitsa komanso zimandithandiza kuthana ndi zinthu zomwe zikundisowetsa mtendere. Ndimachitanso yoga, ndipo ndayamba kukonda kuphika zakudya zopatsa thanzi.

Chomwe chimachitika ndichakuti, zovuta za bulimia zimapitilira zakuthupi. Sindingathe kubwerera zaka khumi kapena kupitilira apo ndidakhala ndikumva kuwawa kwa bulimia. Munthawi imeneyi, malingaliro anga anali atagundika ndikutsuka. Nthawi zambiri zofunika pamoyo wanga, monga prom yanga, tsiku langa loyamba ku koleji, ndi tsiku laukwati wanga, zidetsedwa ndikukumbukira kuyeretsa.

Kutenga: Osapanga cholakwa changa

Ngati muli ndi vuto la kudya, ndikukulimbikitsani kuti mupeze thandizo. Simuyenera kudikira. Mutha kuchita lero. Musalole kuti mukhale ndi vuto la kudya kwa sabata, mwezi, kapena chaka china. Mavuto akudya monga bulimia nthawi zambiri samangokhala onenepa. Amakumananso ndi nkhani zowongolera kapena malingaliro olakwika, monga kukhala wopanda chithunzi. Kuphunzira njira zothanirana ndi mavuto kungathandize.

Choyamba ndikudzivomereza nokha kuti muli ndi vuto komanso kuti mukufuna kuthetsa vutoli. Kuchokera pamenepo, bwenzi kapena dokotala wokhulupirika akhoza kukuthandizani kuti mupeze bwino. Sizovuta. Mungamve manyazi. Mutha kukhala otsimikiza kuti mutha kuzichita nokha. Khalani olimba mtima ndipo funani thandizo. Osalakwitsa ndikudzaza buku lanu lokumbutsa zokumbutsani za vuto lanu lakudya m'malo mwa nthawi zofunika kwambiri m'moyo wanu.

Funafunani chithandizo

Nazi zina mwazinthu zopezera thandizo ndi vuto lakudya:

• Bungwe la National Eating Disrupt Association
• Sukulu Yovuta Yakudya