Sindikulola Schizophrenia Kutanthauzira Ubwenzi Wathu

Zamkati

• Womangidwa ndi ubwana
• Kuchita ndi kusintha
• Zovuta, ndi chiyembekezo
• Kukumana ndi zovuta
• Zothandizira kuthandiza anthu omwe ali ndi schizophrenia

Nambala yafoni yaku California idapezeka pa ID yanga yondiyimbira ndipo m'mimba ndidatsika. Ndinadziwa kuti zinali zoipa. Ndidadziwa kuti iyenera kukhala yokhudzana ndi Jackie. Kodi akufuna thandizo? Kodi watayika? Kodi wamwalira? Mafunso adadutsa m'mutu mwanga pomwe ndimayankha foni. Ndipo nthawi yomweyo, ndidamva mawu ake.

"Cathy, ndi Jackie." Anamveka wamantha komanso wamantha. “Sindikudziwa zomwe zidachitika. Amati ndabaya wina. Ali bwino. Ndikulingalira ndimaganiza kuti amandigwiririra. Sindikukumbukira. Sindikudziwa. Sindikukhulupirira kuti ndili m'ndende. Ndili m'ndende! "

Kugunda kwanga kunathamanga, komabe ndinayesetsa kukhala bata. Ngakhale panali nkhani zosokoneza, ndinali wokondwa kumva mawu ake. Zinandichititsa manyazi kuti anali mndende, koma ndimamasulidwa kuti anali wamoyo. Sindikukhulupirira kuti winawake wofatsa komanso wosalimba ngati Jackie amatha kuvulaza wina. Osachepera, si a Jackie omwe ndimamudziwa… asanafike schizophrenia.

Nthawi yomaliza yomwe ndinalankhula ndi Jackie ndisanayimbidwe foni zaka ziwiri zapitazo pomwe adapita kukasamba kwa mwana wanga. Anakhala mpaka phwandolo litatha, anandikumbatira, ndikulowa mu Hummer yake yodzaza padenga ndi zovala, ndikuyamba kuyendetsa kuchokera ku Illinois kupita ku California. Sindinkaganiza kuti akapita kumeneko, koma adatero.

Tsopano, anali ku California komanso kundende. Ndinayesa kumukhazika mtima pansi. “Jackie. Chedweraniko pang'ono. Ndiuzeni zomwe zikuchitika. Iwe ukudwala. Mukumvetsetsa kuti mukudwala? Kodi mwapeza loya? Kodi loya uja akudziwa kuti ukudwala matenda amisala? ”

Ndinapitiliza kumufotokozera kuti zaka zingapo asanapite ku California, adayamba kuwonetsa zizindikilo za schizophrenia. “Kodi mukukumbukira mutakhala mgalimoto yanu, mukundiuza kuti mwawona satana akuyenda mumsewu? Kodi mukukumbukira ndikuphimba mawindo onse mnyumba yanu ndi tepi yakuda? Mukukumbukira mukukhulupirira kuti FBI ikukutsatirani? Kodi mukukumbukira kuti mudadutsa malo oletsedwa pa eyapoti ya O'Hare? Ukudziwa kuti ukudwala, Jackie? ”

Kudzera m'malingaliro obalalika komanso mawu opunduka, Jackie adamuwuza kuti womuteteza pagulu amamuuza kuti ndi wamisala komanso kuti amamvetsetsa, koma ndimatha kunena kuti wasokonezeka ndipo samazindikira kuti akukhala ndi imodzi mwamavuto amisala kudwala. Moyo wake udasinthidwa kwamuyaya.

Womangidwa ndi ubwana

Jackie ndi ine tinakulira kutsidya kwa msewu wina ndi mnzake. Tinali abwenzi apamtima kuyambira pomwe tidakumana koyamba kokwerera mabasi mkalasi yoyamba. Tidakhala pafupi nthawi zonse m'masukulu oyambira mpaka apakati ndipo tidamaliza maphunziro a kusekondale limodzi. Ngakhale tinkasiyana njira zopita kukoleji, tidalumikizanabe kenako tidasamukira ku Chicago pasanathe chaka chimodzi. Kwazaka zambiri, takhala tikugawana zochitika za momwe timagwirira ntchito limodzi komanso nkhani zamasewera abanja, zovuta za anyamata, komanso zovuta zamafashoni. Jackie mpaka anandiuza kwa mnzake amene ndinkagwira naye ntchito, amene anadzakhala mwamuna wanga.

Kuchita ndi kusintha

Ali ndi zaka zapakati pa makumi awiri, Jackie adayamba kuchita zaphokoso ndikuwonetsa zachilendo. Anandiuza zakukhosi ndipo anandiuza zakukhosi kwake. Ndinamuchonderera kuti athandizidwe ndi akatswiri, koma osachita bwino. Ndinasowa chochita. Ngakhale makolo anga anamwalira, mphwake, azakhali awo, ndi agogo anga pasanathe zaka zinayi, kuwona mnzanga waubwana atatayika ndi schizophrenia chinali chinthu chowopsa kwambiri m'moyo wanga.

Ndinkadziwa kuti palibe chomwe ndingachite kuti okondedwa anga akhalebe ndi moyo - amathandizidwa ndi matenda osachiritsika - koma ndimakhala ndi chiyembekezo nthawi zonse kuti thandizo langa ndi chikondi changa kwa Jackie chimamuthandiza kukhala bwino. Kupatula apo, ndili mwana, nthawi iliyonse yomwe amafuna kuthawa chisoni cha nyumba yake kapena kutulutsa mtima wosweka, ndimakhala komweko ndimatsegula khutu, ayisikilimu, komanso nthabwala kapena awiri.

Koma nthawi ino inali yosiyana. Nthawi ino ndinali nditasowa kanthu.

Zovuta, ndi chiyembekezo

Nazi zomwe ndikudziwa tsopano za matenda ofooketsa a Jackie, ngakhale pali zambiri zomwe sindikumvetsa. National Institute of Mental Health imafotokoza kuti matenda a schizophrenia ndi “matenda ovuta kumvetsetsa omwe amadziwika kuti ali ndi zovuta zosiyanasiyana.” Zitha kuchitika mwa amuna ndi akazi a mibadwo yonse, koma amayi nthawi zambiri amakonda kuwonetsa zizindikilo za matendawa kumapeto kwa zaka za m'ma 20s ndi ma 30s, ndipamene Jackie adawonetsa zizindikilo.

Pali mitundu yosiyanasiyana ya schizophrenia, "paranoid" kukhala yomwe Jackie ali nayo. Schizophrenia nthawi zambiri samamvetsetsa ndipo amasalidwa kwenikweni, monganso matenda amisala. Wofufuza zamaganizidwe a Eleanor Longden adapereka TEDTalk yodabwitsa pofotokoza momwe adadziwira yekha schizophrenia, momwe abwenzi ake sanamvere bwino, komanso m'mene adagonjetsera mawu akumutu kwake. Nkhani yake ndi ya chiyembekezo. Tikukhulupirira kuti ndikulakalaka Jackie.

Kukumana ndi zovuta

Pambuyo poyimba foni modabwitsa kuchokera kundende, Jackie adaweruzidwa kuti amumenya ndipo adaweruza kuti akhale m'ndende zaka California m'ndende. Zaka zitatu, Jackie adasamutsidwa kupita kuchipatala. Munthawi imeneyi, timalemberana makalata, ndipo ine ndi mwamuna wanga tinaganiza zomuchezera. Chiyembekezo chomuwona Jackie chinali chopweteka m'matumbo. Sindinadziwe ngati ndingadutse nazo kapena kupirira kuti ndimuwone kumalo amenewo. Koma ndinadziwa kuti ndiyenera kuyesa.

Pomwe ine ndi amuna anga tidayimirira pamzere kunja kwa chipatala ndikudikirira kuti zitseko zitsegulidwe, mutu wanga udadzaza ndi zisangalalo. Ine ndi Jackie, timasewera hopscotch pamalo okwerera mabasi, tikupita limodzi limodzi, tikupita ku sekondale mgalimoto yake yomenyedwa. Khosi langa linatsamwa. Miyendo yanga idanjenjemera. Liwongo lakumulephera, losakhoza kumuthandiza, lidandilemera.

Ndidayang'ana bokosi la pizza komanso chokoleti cha Fannie May mdzanja langa ndikuganiza momwe zidalili zopusa kuganiza kuti atha kusangalatsa tsiku lake. Adakodwa mkati mwa malowa komanso mumtima mwake. Kwa mphindi, ndimaganiza kuti ndikosavuta kungochokapo. Zingakhale zosavuta kukumbukira kusekerera limodzi pa basi yasukulu, kapena kumusangalatsa ali m'bwalo lamilandu la sekondale, kapena kugula zovala zapamwamba limodzi ku boutique ku Chicago. Zingakhale zosavuta kungomukumbukira zonsezi zisanachitike, monga mzanga wopanda nkhawa, wokonda zosangalatsa.

Koma sinali nkhani yake yonse. Schizophrenia, ndi ndende limodzi nayo, tsopano inali gawo la moyo wake. Kotero pamene zitseko zinatseguka, ndinapuma movutikira, ndinakumba mwakuya, ndikulowamo.

Jackie atandiona ine ndi amuna anga, adatimwetulira kwambiri - kumwetulira komweko komwe ndidakumbukira kuyambira ali ndi zaka 5, ndi 15, ndi 25. Adali Jackie zivute zitani. Iye anali akadali bwenzi langa lokongola.

Ulendo wathu unadutsa mwachangu kwambiri. Ndinamuonetsa zithunzi za mwana wanga wamwamuna ndi wamkazi, amene anali asanakumanepo. Tidaseka za nthawi yomwe mbalame idadziphimba pamutu pake tikamapita kusukulu, komanso momwe tidavina mpaka 4 koloko m'mawa kuphwando la tsiku la St. Patrick tili ndi zaka 24. Adandiuza kuchuluka komwe amasowa kunyumba, kukonza misomali yake, kugwira ntchito, ndikukhala pachibwenzi ndi amuna.

Sanakumbukirebe chilichonse chokhudza zomwe zidamupangitsa kuti akhale m'ndende, koma adamva chisoni kwambiri ndi zomwe adachita. Adalankhula momasuka za matenda ake nati mankhwala ndi chithandizo zikuthandizira. Tinalira ponena kuti mwina sitidzaonananso kwa nthawi yayitali. Mwadzidzidzi, zinali ngati waya waminga panja wasowa ndipo tinali titakhala ku Chicago pamalo ogulitsira khofi tikugawana nkhani. Sizinali zabwino, koma zinali zenizeni.

Pamene ine ndi mwamuna wanga tinachoka, tinayendetsa galimoto kwa pafupifupi ola limodzi mwakachetechete tagwirana manja. Kunali chete kodzaza ndi chisoni komanso chiyembekezo cha chiyembekezo. Ndinkadana ndi vuto lopweteketsa mtima lomwe Jackie anali nalo. Ndinaipidwa ndi matenda omwe adamuyika kumeneko, koma ndidaganiza kuti ngakhale izi zitha kukhala gawo la moyo wa Jackie tsopano, sizingamutanthauzire.

Kwa ine, azikhala msungwana wokoma nthawi zonse yemwe ndimayembekezera kumuwona kokwerera basi tsiku lililonse.

Zothandizira kuthandiza anthu omwe ali ndi schizophrenia

Ngati muli ndi mnzanu kapena wachibale wanu yemwe ali ndi schizophrenia, mutha kuwathandiza powalimbikitsa kuti alandire chithandizo ndikumamatira. Ngati simukudziwa komwe mungapeze katswiri wazachipatala yemwe amachiza schizophrenia, funsani dokotala wanu wamkulu kuti akuthandizeni. Muthanso kulumikizana ndi inshuwaransi ya okondedwa anu. Ngati mukufuna kusaka pa intaneti, American Psychological Association imapereka kusaka pa intaneti ndi malo ndi zina zapadera.

National Institute of Mental Health ikukulimbikitsani kuti mukumbukire kuti schizophrenia ndi matenda obadwa nawo omwe wokondedwa wanu sangangotseka. Amanena kuti njira yothandiza kwambiri kuyankhira wokondedwa wanu akamanena zachilendo kapena zonama ndikumvetsetsa kuti amakhulupiriradi malingaliro ndi malingaliro omwe ali nawo.