Osataya Mtima: Moyo Wanga Zaka 12 Nditazindikira Kansa ya Prostate

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Ndili ndi zaka 42, ndidamva kuti ndili ndi khansa ya prostate. Ndinali ndi metastasis m'mafupa anga, mapapo, ndi ma lymph node. Mulingo wanga wa prostate-antigen (PSA) unali woposa 3,200, ndipo dokotala wanga anandiuza kuti ndatsala ndi chaka chimodzi kapena zochepa.

Izi zinali pafupifupi zaka 12 zapitazo.

Masabata angapo oyamba anali achisoni. Ndidalemba ma biopsies, ma CT scan, ndikuwona mafupa, ndipo zotsatira zake zidabweranso zoyipa kuposa zomaliza. Mfundo yanga yotsikitsitsa idadza nthawi yolemba biopsy monga ophunzira awiri achichepere oyamwitsa adawona. Sindinakhale pansi, ndipo ndinalira mwakachetechete pamene anali kukambirana za chotupacho.

Ndinayamba mankhwala a mahomoni pomwepo, ndipo mkati mwa milungu iwiri, kutentha kunayamba. Osachepera amayi anga ndi ine pamapeto pake tidagawana china chofanana, ndimaganiza. Koma kukhumudwa kunayamba kulowa pomwe ndimamva kuti umuna wanga umatha.

Ndinamva kuti ndavulidwa. Moyo wanga unayambiranso kuyenda bwino. Ndinali kupeza bwino zachuma, ndimakondana ndi bwenzi langa lodabwitsa, ndipo timayembekezera kuti tidzakhala limodzi.

Zikanakhala zophweka kukhumudwa kwambiri pakadapanda zinthu ziwiri. Choyamba, ndimakhulupirira Mulungu, ndipo chachiwiri, mkwatibwi wabwino kwambiri. Sanandilole kuti ndisiye; anakhulupirira, ndipo sanachoke. Adandigulira kayak, adandigulira njinga, ndipo adandipangitsa kugwiritsa ntchito zonse ziwiri. Nyimbo "Live Like You You Die" yolembedwa ndi Tim McGraw idakhala nyimbo yanga, ndipo masalmo 103, ma vesi 2-3 adakhala mawu anga. Ndinkatchula mavesi amenewa ndikamagona, ndipo ndinkasinkhasinkha ndikaganiza kuti kufa kumveka bwanji. Pambuyo pake, ndinayamba kukhulupirira kuti tsogolo likhoza kukhala lotheka.

Mkazi wanga adandikwatirana patatha chaka nditatulutsidwa. Patsiku laukwati wathu, ndidamulonjeza zaka 30.

Ndisanachitike khansa, ndimawona kuti moyo wanga udawonongeka. Ndinkagwira ntchito mopitirira muyeso, sindinapite kutchuthi, ndipo ndinkangodzikonda. Sindinali munthu wabwino kwambiri. Chiyambireni kupeza kwanga, ndaphunzira kukonda kwambiri komanso kulankhula mokoma. Tsopano ndakhala mwamuna wabwino, bambo wabwino, bwenzi labwino, ndiponso munthu wabwino. Ndimagwirabe ntchito nthawi zonse, koma ndimapereka nthawi yowonjezera ngati kuli kotheka. Timawononga chilimwe chathu pamadzi ndi nyengo yathu yozizira m'mapiri. Ziribe kanthu nyengo, titha kupezeka tikukwera, kupalasa njinga, kapena kayaking. Moyo ndiwodabwitsa, wodabwitsa.

Ndimaganiza kuti khansa ya prostate ndi “mkwiyo” wanga waukulu. Sizinakhale zophweka; Khansa ya prostate yandilanda chilakolako cha mkwatibwi wanga. Khansara ndi yovuta kwambiri kwa anzathu, omwe angamve kuti sakondedwa, osafunika, komanso osakondedwa. Koma sitinalole kuti izi zitilepheretse kukondana kapena kutisokoneza. Pazovuta zonse zomwe khansa ya prostate yabweretsa, ndinganene moona mtima kuti ndi imodzi mwa mphatso zabwino kwambiri zomwe ndalandirapo. Zinasintha moyo wanga. Kuzindikira ndi chilichonse.

Pa Juni 6, 2018, ndidzakondwerera zaka 12 zakubadwa kuyambira nditapezeka. Khansara imakhalabe yosadziwika. Ndikupitilirabe chithandizo chomwe ndakhala ndikudya kwa miyezi 56 yapita, chithandizo changa chachitatu kuyambira pomwe ulendowu udayamba.

Khansa ilibe mphamvu. Zitha kungotengera kwa ife zomwe timaloleza kutero. Palibe lonjezo la mawa. Zilibe kanthu kuti tikudwala kapena tili athanzi, tonse ndife odwala. Zomwe zili zofunika ndi zomwe timachita pano ndi pano. Ndimasankha kuchita chinthu chabwino nacho.

Ndikuzindikira kuti khansa ndiyowopsa. Palibe amene amafuna kumva mawu oti "uli ndi khansa," koma uyenera kuti udutse. Malangizo anga kwa munthu aliyense wopezeka ndi matenda owolawa ndi awa:

Musalole kuti khansara ifike patsogolo m'moyo wanu. Pali nthawi pakati pa matenda ndi imfa. Nthawi zambiri, pamakhala nthawi yayitali. Chitani kena kake nawo. Seka, konda, ndipo sangalala tsiku lililonse ngati kuti watha. Koposa zonse, muyenera kukhulupirira mawa. Sayansi ya zamankhwala yafika patali kwambiri kuchokera pomwe anandipeza. Pali mankhwala atsopano omwe akuyesedwa tsiku lililonse, ndipo mankhwala akubwera. Nthawi ina ndidanenanso kuti ngati ndingapeze miyezi isanu ndi umodzi kuchokera kuchipatala chilichonse chomwe ndikupezeka, nditha kukhala zaka 30 kenako zina.

Amuna, pali chiyembekezo.

Modzipereka,

Todd

Todd Seals ndi mwamuna, bambo, agogo aamuna, blogger, wochirikiza oleza mtima, komanso wazaka 12 wazaka 4 wankhondo wa khansa ya prostate waku Silver Lake, Washington. Iye wakwatiwa ndi chikondi cha moyo wake, ndipo limodzi, ndi okonda kuyenda, oyendetsa njinga, okwera pamahatchi, otsetsereka, okwera ngalawa, ndi kuwutsa okwera. Amakhala moyo wake mokweza tsiku lililonse ngakhale atadwala khansa.