Zolemba Zanga Zimalembanso Nkhani Yanga Yodwala Mumtima

Zamkati

• China chake chokongola kubisa cholakwika
• Kutuluka yunifolomu

Zaumoyo ndi thanzi zimakhudza moyo wa aliyense mosiyanasiyana. Iyi ndi nkhani ya munthu m'modzi.

Zojambulajambula: Anthu ena amawakonda, ena amawanyansidwa nawo. Aliyense ali ndi ufulu wamaganizidwe ake, ndipo ngakhale ndakhala ndikukumana ndi mayankho osiyanasiyana pama tattoo anga, ndimawakonda kwambiri.

Ndili ndi vuto la kusinthasintha zochitika, koma sindigwiritsa ntchito liwu loti "kulimbana." Zikutanthauza kuti ndikulephera nkhondoyi - zomwe sindine ayi! Ndakhala ndikulimbana ndi matenda amisala kwa zaka 10 tsopano, ndipo pano ndikuyendetsa tsamba la Instagram lodzipereka kuthana ndi manyazi obwera chifukwa chathanzi. Thanzi langa linachepa ndili ndi zaka 14, ndipo nditatha kudzivulaza komanso kudya, ndinapempha thandizo ndili ndi zaka 18. Ndipo chinali chinthu chabwino kwambiri chomwe ndidachitapo.

Ndili ndi ma tattoo opitilira 50. Ambiri ali ndi tanthauzo lawo. (Ena alibe tanthauzo - kulozera papepala lomwe lili padzanja langa!). Kwa ine, ma tattoo ndi mtundu waluso, ndipo ndili ndi mawu ambiri othandiza okumbutsa momwe ndapitira.

Ndinayamba kujambula ma tattoo ndili ndi zaka 17, chaka chimodzi ndisanapemphe thandizo pamavuto anga amisala. Chizindikiro changa choyamba sichikutanthauza chilichonse. Ndingakonde kunena kuti zikutanthauza zambiri, ndikuti tanthauzo kumbuyo kwake ndi lochokera pansi pamtima komanso lokongola, koma sichingakhale chowonadi. Ndinachipeza chifukwa chimawoneka bwino. Ndi chizindikiro chamtendere padzanja langa, ndipo nthawi imeneyo, ndinalibe chikhumbo chopeza china.

Kenako, kudzivulaza kwanga kudatha.

Kudzivulaza kunali gawo la moyo wanga kuyambira zaka 15 mpaka 22. Pa 18 makamaka, kunali kutengeka. Kuledzera. Ndinkadzivulaza mwachipembedzo usiku uliwonse, ndipo ngati sindinathe pazifukwa zilizonse, ndimakhala ndi mantha owopsa. Kudzivulaza kunangotenga osati thupi langa lokha. Zinandilanda moyo wanga.

China chake chokongola kubisa cholakwika

Ndinali ndi zipsera, ndipo ndimafuna kuziphimba. Osati chifukwa ndinali wamanyazi mwanjira iliyonse pazakale zanga komanso zomwe zidachitika, koma kukumbutsa kosalekeza komwe ndimazunzika komanso kupsinjika ndimakhala kotheka kuthana nako. Ndimafuna china chokongola kubisa cholakwika.

Chifukwa chake, mu 2013, ndidaphimba mkono wanga wamanzere. Ndipo zinali mpumulo. Ndinalira panthawiyi, osati chifukwa cha ululu. Zinali ngati kuti zikumbukiro zanga zonse zoipa zikutha pamaso panga. Ndinadzimva wamtendere. Chizindikirocho ndi maluwa atatu omwe amaimira banja langa: amayi anga, abambo anga, ndi mng'ono wanga. Mawu oti, "Moyo suyeserera," amawazungulira ndi riboni.

Mawuwo aperekedwa m'banja langa m'mibadwo yambiri. Anali agogo anga aamuna omwe ananena izi kwa amayi anga, ndipo amalume anga nawonso adalemba m'buku lawo laukwati. Amayi anga amalankhula kawirikawiri. Ndinangodziwa kuti ndikufuna ndikhale nazo kwathunthu pathupi langa.

Chifukwa ndinali nditakhala zaka zambiri ndikubisa mikono yanga kuti anthu asaione, ndikudandaula kuti anthu angaganize kapena kunena chiyani, zinali zopweteka kwambiri poyamba. Koma, mwamwayi, wojambula tattoo anali mnzake. Anandithandiza kuti ndikhale wodekha, womasuka, komanso womasuka. Panalibe zokambirana zokhumudwitsa zakomwe zipserazo zidachokera kapena chifukwa chomwe analiri kumeneko. Unali mkhalidwe wabwino kwambiri.

Kutuluka yunifolomu

Dzanja langa lamanja linali loipa. Miyendo yanga inali ndi zipsera, komanso akakolo anga. Ndipo zinali kukulira kukhala zovuta kubisa thupi langa nthawi zonse. Ndinkakhala ku blazer yoyera. Linakhala bulangeti langa lotonthoza. Sindingatuluke mnyumbamo popanda iwo, ndipo ndinkavala ndi chilichonse.

Inali yunifolomu yanga, ndipo ndinkadana nayo.

M'chilimwe munali kotentha, ndipo anthu amandifunsa chifukwa chomwe ndimavala zovala zazitali mikono. Ndinapita ku California ndi mnzanga, James, ndipo ndidavala blazer nthawi yonseyo kuda nkhawa ndi zomwe anthu anganene. Kunali kotentha kwambiri, ndipo kunatsala pang'ono kunyamula. Sindingathe kukhala chonchi, kumangobisala nthawi zonse.

Uku kunali kusintha kwanga.

Nditafika kunyumba, ndinataya zida zonse zomwe ndimakhala ndikudzivulaza. Ndinalibe bulangeti langa lachitetezo, zochita zanga zausiku. Poyamba zinali zovuta. Ndinkachita mantha mchipinda changa ndikulira. Koma kenako ndinawona blazer ndipo ndinakumbukira chifukwa chomwe ndimapangira izi: ndimachita izi mtsogolo mwanga.

Zaka zidadutsa ndipo zipsera zanga zidachira. Pomaliza, mu 2016, ndidakwanitsa kuphimba mkono wanga wakumanja. Inali mphindi yosangalatsa kwambiri, yosintha moyo, ndipo ndimalira nthawi yonseyi. Koma itatha, ndinayang'ana pagalasi ndikumwetulira. Panalibe mtsikana wamantha yemwe moyo wake umangodzipweteka yekha. Kumusintha kunali wankhondo wolimba mtima, yemwe adzapulumuke mkuntho wolimba kwambiri.

Chizindikirocho ndi agulugufe atatu, omwe ali ndi mawu akuti, "Nyenyezi sizinganyere popanda mdima." Chifukwa sangathe.

Tiyenera kutenga zovuta ndi zosalala. Monga wotchuka Dolly Parton anena, "Palibe mvula, kapena utawaleza."

Ndinavala T-shirt kwa nthawi yoyamba m'zaka zisanu ndi ziwiri, ndipo panalibe kutentha panja. Ndinatuluka m'situdiyo, ndikudula chovala m'manja, ndikukumbatira mpweya wozizira m'manja mwanga. Panali patadutsa nthawi yayitali.

Kwa iwo omwe akuganiza zolemba mphini, musaganize kuti muyenera kupeza chinthu chopindulitsa. Pezani chilichonse chomwe mukufuna. Palibe malamulo okhudza momwe mungakhalire moyo wanu. Sindinadzivulaze kwa zaka ziwiri, ndipo ma tattoo anga akadali olimba monga kale.

Nanga blazer uja? Sindinavale konse.

Olivia - kapena Liv mwachidule - ndi 24, waku United Kingdom, komanso blogger wamaganizidwe. Amakonda zinthu zonse za gothic, makamaka Halowini. Amakondanso kwambiri tattoo, ali ndi zoposa 40 mpaka pano. Nkhani yake ya Instagram, yomwe imatha kutha nthawi ndi nthawi, imapezeka apa.