Ichi ndichifukwa chake Matenda Anga Osaoneka Amandipangitsa Kukhala Mnzanga Woyipa

Zamkati

• Nthawi zina, sindikuwoneka kuti ndili ndi ndalama m'nkhani yanu kapena m'moyo wanu
• Pafupifupi nthawi zonse, sindibweza maimelo anu, zolemba zanu, kapena ma voicemail
• Nthawi zambiri, sindimabwera pamacheza anu
• Kodi ndine bwenzi loipa? Sindikufuna kukhala

Timaphatikizapo zinthu zomwe timaganiza kuti ndizothandiza kwa owerenga athu. Ngati mutagula maulalo omwe ali patsamba lino, titha kupeza ndalama zochepa. Nayi njira yathu.

Zomwe takumana nazo komanso zomwe ndimachita mwina zitha kusefedwa mtondo wakumwa, koma ndimasamalirabe. Ndikufunabe kukhala bwenzi. Ndikufunabe kukhalabe ndikukuthandizani.

Tiyerekeze kuti munthu wamba amakhudzidwa ndi sikelo ya 1 mpaka 10. Nthawi zambiri malingaliro a tsiku ndi tsiku amakhala mgulu la 3 mpaka 4 chifukwa momwe zimakhalira koma sizimakakamiza… mpaka chinthu china chodabwitsa chichitike - chisudzulo, imfa, kukwezedwa pantchito, kapena chochitika china chachilendo.

Kenako kukhudzika kwa munthu kumafika pachimake mkati mwa 8 mpaka 10 ndipo adzakhala otengeka pang'ono ndi chochitikacho. Ndipo aliyense akumvetsa izi. Ndizomveka kuti munthu amene wataya wokondedwa wake amakhala nazo nthawi zambiri pamutu pake.

Kupatula, ndikadandaula kwambiri, pafupifupi nthawi zonse ndimakhala mgulu la 8 mpaka 10. Ndipo izi zitha kundipangitsa kuti ndiwoneke - makamaka, kutopa kwamaganizidwe kumandipangitsa kukhala - bwenzi "loipa".

Nthawi zina, sindikuwoneka kuti ndili ndi ndalama m'nkhani yanu kapena m'moyo wanu

Ndikhulupirireni ndikakuuzani, Ndimasamala za omwe ali pafupi nane. Ndikufunabe kudziwa za inu, ngakhale nditaiwala kufunsa. Nthawi zina ululu umakhala woipa ndiye chinthu chokha chomwe chimakhala pamwamba pamalingaliro mwanga.

Kuvutika kwanga, chisoni changa, kutopa kwanga, nkhawa yanga… zoyipa zonse zomwe zimadza ndi kukhumudwa kwanga ndizochulukirapo ndipo ndimangokhala komweko zivute zitani. Izi ndizochitika zanga za tsiku ndi tsiku, zomwe anthu "samapeza" nthawi zonse. Palibe chochitika chachilendo chofotokozera kukhudzika uku. Chifukwa chodwala ubongo, ndimakhala mderali nthawi zonse.

Maganizo awa amakhala pamwamba pamutu wanga nthawi zambiri, zimawoneka kuti ndi zinthu zokha zomwe ndimaganizira.Nditha kukumana ndikungoyang'ana m'michombo, ngati kuti ndadzipweteketsa m'masautso anga ndipo chinthu chokha chomwe ndimaganizira ndi ine ndekha.

Koma ndimasamalirabe. Zomwe takumana nazo komanso zomwe ndimachita mwina zitha kusefedwa mtondo wakumwa, koma ndimasamalirabe. Ndikufunabe kukhala bwenzi. Ndikufunabe kukhalabe ndikukuthandizani.

Pafupifupi nthawi zonse, sindibweza maimelo anu, zolemba zanu, kapena ma voicemail

Ndikudziwa kuti zikuwoneka ngati ntchito yamasekondi asanu, koma ndizovuta kuti ndione voicemail yanga. Zoonadi. Zimandipweteka komanso zimawopseza.

Sindikufuna kudziwa zomwe anthu ena akunena za ine. Ndili ndi mantha kuti padzakhala china chake "choyipa" mu imelo yanga, zolemba, kapena voicemail ndipo sindidzatha kuthana nazo. Zimanditengera maola kapena masiku kuti ndigwiritse ntchito nyonga yanga kuti ndiwone zomwe anthu akunena kwa ine.

Sikuti ndikuganiza kuti anthuwa ndi achifundo komanso sasamala. Kungoti ubongo wanga wopsinjika umandipangitsa kukhulupirira kuti china chake choipa chidzachitika ndikasankha kumvera.

Ndipo bwanji ngati sindingathe kuthana nazo?

Madandaulo awa ndi enieni kwa ine. Komanso ndizowona kuti ndimakusamalirani ndipo ndikufuna kuyankha. Chonde dziwani kuti kuyankhulana kwanu ndi ine ndikofunikira ngakhale sindingathe kubwezera nthawi zonse.

Nthawi zambiri, sindimabwera pamacheza anu

Ndimasangalala anthu akandifunsa kuti tizicheza. Nthawi zina ndimakhala wokondwa nazo panthawi yomwe amafunsa - koma malingaliro anga samadziwika. Izi mwina zimandipangitsa kukhala ngati bwenzi loipa, munthu amene mukufuna kusiya kumufunsa kumacheza.

Kungoti pofika nthawi yochitikayi, nditha kukhala nditapanikizika kwambiri kuchoka panyumba. Mwina sindinasambe masiku ambiri. Mwina sindinatsuke mano kapena tsitsi. Ndikhoza kumverera ngati ng'ombe yonenepa kwambiri ndikadziwona nditavala zovala zomwe ndikanafuna kutha. Ndikhoza kutsimikiza kuti ndine munthu woipa kwambiri komanso "woipa" kwambiri kuti ndisakhale patsogolo pa ena. Ndipo zonsezi siziphatikizapo nkhawa yanga.

Ndimakhala ndi nkhawa. Ndimakhala ndi nkhawa ndikakumana ndi anthu atsopano. Ndimakhala ndi nkhawa ndi zomwe ena aganiza za ine. Ndimakhala ndi nkhawa kuti ndipanga kapena kunena chinthu cholakwika.

Zonsezi zimatha kumangapo, ndipo pofika nthawi yomwe mwambowu ubwera, sindimatha kukakhala nawo. Sikuti ine sindiri ndikufuna kukhala kumeneko. Ndimatero. Kungoti matenda anga aubongo andigwira ndipo sindingalimbane nawo mokwanira kuti ndichoke mnyumba.

Koma ndikufuna kuti mudziwe kuti ndikufunabe kuti mundifunse ndipo ndikufunadi kuti ndikakhalepo, ngati ndingathe.

Kodi ndine bwenzi loipa? Sindikufuna kukhala

Sindikufuna kukhala bwenzi loipa. Ndikufuna kukhala bwenzi labwino kwa inu monga momwe mulili kwa ine. Ndikufuna kudzakhala nanu. Ndikufuna kumva za moyo wanu. Ndikufuna kuyankhula nanu ndikufuna kucheza nanu.

Zimangochitika kuti kukhumudwa kwanga kwaika chotchinga chachikulu pakati pa inu ndi ine. Ndikulonjeza kuti ndidzagwira ntchito kuti nditeteze chopingacho nthawi iliyonse yomwe ndingathe, koma sindingathe kulonjeza kuti ndidzakwanitsa.

Chonde mvetsetsani: Ngakhale kukhumudwa kwanga kungandipange bwenzi loipa nthawi zina, kukhumudwa kwanga sikuli ine. Weniweni ine amasamala za inu ndipo akufuna kuchitira inu monga inu muyenera kuchitiridwa.

Natasha Tracy ndi wokamba nkhani wodziwika komanso wolemba wopambana mphotho. Bulogu yake, Bipolar Burble, nthawi zonse imakhala pakati pamabulogu apamwamba kwambiri a 10 pa intaneti. Natasha ndiwonso wolemba ndi ma Marble Otayika: Insights into My Life with Depression & Bipolar kwa mbiri yake. Amadziwika kuti ndi amene amachititsa kuti anthu azikhala ndi thanzi labwino. Adalembera masamba ambiri kuphatikiza HealthyPlace, HealthLine, PsychCentral, The Mighty, Huffington Post ndi ena ambiri.

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