Akatswiri Azachipatala Akangodalira Kafukufuku ndi Zowunika Kuti Azindikire, Aliyense Amataya

Zamkati

• Ndinali ndi zaka 18 ndipo ndinawona dokotala wanga woyamba. Koma sindinadziwe kuti zingatenge zaka zisanu ndi zitatu kuti ndilandire chithandizo choyenera, osanenapo za matenda olondola.
• Dokotala woyamba wa matenda amisala amanditcha "ochititsa munthu kusinthasintha zochitika." Nditayesa kufunsa mafunso, adandidzudzula chifukwa choti sindimamukhulupirira.
• Pakadali pano, ndidawona operekera 10 osiyanasiyana ndikulandila malingaliro 10 othamangira, otsutsana - {textend} ndipo adataya zaka zisanu ndi zitatu chifukwa cha kachitidwe kosweka.
• Ngakhale sizingakhale zomveka, chowonadi ndichakuti, zomwe zidandichitikira ndizofala modabwitsa.
• Ngati kuwunika kwa amisala kulephera kuwerengera njira zosavomerezeka zomwe odwala amaganiza, kupereka malipoti, ndikumakumana ndi zizindikilo zamaganizidwe, kuzindikira molakwika kumangopitilizabe.
• Pamapeto pake ndimakhala ndi moyo wokwanira komanso wokhutiritsa, womwe umatheka pokhapokha ndikuzindikira matenda omwe ndimakhala nawo.

Kuperewera kwa mgwirizano pakati pa adokotala ndi odwala kumatha kuchedwetsa kuchira kwazaka zambiri.

"Sam, ndikadakhala kuti ndazigwira," adokotala anga adandiuza. "Ndine wachisoni."

"Imeneyo" inali matenda osokoneza bongo (OCD), matenda omwe ndidakhala nawo mosadziwa kuyambira ndili mwana.

Ndikunena mosadziwa chifukwa madokotala osiyanasiyana a 10, wodwala matenda amisala pakati pawo, adandipeza ndimatenda aliwonse (akuwoneka) aliwonse amisala kupatula OCD. Choyipa chachikulu kwambiri, izi zikutanthauza kuti ndimamwa mankhwala ambiri kwazaka pafupifupi khumi - {textend} zonse zathanzi lomwe sindinayambe ndayambirapo.

Ndiye, kwenikweni, zidapita kuti cholakwika kwambiri?

Ndinali ndi zaka 18 ndipo ndinawona dokotala wanga woyamba. Koma sindinadziwe kuti zingatenge zaka zisanu ndi zitatu kuti ndilandire chithandizo choyenera, osanenapo za matenda olondola.

Poyamba ndidayamba kuwona wothandizira pazomwe ndimangofotokoza kuti ndikumangokhala kukhumudwa kwakukulu komanso vuto la nkhawa zopanda nzeru zomwe ndimachita mantha tsiku ndi tsiku. Pofika zaka 18, ndinali wowona mtima kwathunthu nditamuuza mgawo langa loyamba, "Sindingathe kupitiliza kukhala motere."

Sizinanditengere nthawi kuti andilimbikitse kuti ndikawone katswiri wazamisala, yemwe amatha kudziwa ndikuthandizira kuyang'anira zidutswazo. Ndinavomera. Ndinkafuna dzina la zomwe zakhala zikundivutitsa kwa zaka zonsezi.

Naively, ndimaganiza kuti sizinali zosiyana kwambiri ndi bondo lophwanyika. Ndinajambula dotolo wokoma mtima akundipatsa moni nati, "Ndiye vuto ndi chiyani?" Pambuyo pake panali mafunso mosamala monga, "Kodi zimapweteka pamene ..." "Kodi mungathe ..."

M'malo mwake, anali mafunso ofunsidwa papepala komanso mayi wina woweruza, woweruza yemwe amandifunsa kuti, "Ngati ukuchita bwino kusukulu, bwanji wabwera kuno?" otsatiridwa ndi "Zabwino - {textend} mukufuna mankhwala ati?"

Dokotala woyamba wa matenda amisala amanditcha "ochititsa munthu kusinthasintha zochitika." Nditayesa kufunsa mafunso, adandidzudzula chifukwa choti sindimamukhulupirira.

Ndikapeza zolemba zambiri ndikamayenda mthupi:

• mtundu wambiri wosinthasintha mitundu
• mtundu wa bipolar I
• vuto lakumalire
• matenda ovutika maganizo
• kusokonezeka kwakukulu
• matenda amisala
• matenda osagwirizana
• histrionic vuto lamunthu

Koma pomwe zilembozo zidasintha, thanzi langa lamisala silinasinthe.

Ndinapitilira kukulira. Momwe mankhwala owonjezera anali kuwonjezeredwa (nthawi imodzi, ndinali ndimankhwala asanu ndi atatu amisala amisala, omwe amaphatikizapo ma lithiamu ndi kuchuluka kwa mankhwala a antipsychotic), azachipatala anga adakhumudwitsidwa pomwe palibe chomwe chikuwoneka bwino.

Nditagonekedwa m'chipatala kachiwiri, ndinatulukira chigoba cha munthu. Anzanga, omwe anabwera kudzanditenga kuchipatala, sanakhulupirire zomwe adawona. Anandipatsa mankhwala osokoneza bongo kwambiri kwakuti sindimatha kumangiriza ziganizo pamodzi.

Chilango chokhacho chomwe ndidakwanitsa kunena, chidamveka bwino: "Sindikupitanso komweko. Ulendo wina ndidzadzipha kaye. ”

Pakadali pano, ndidawona operekera 10 osiyanasiyana ndikulandila malingaliro 10 othamangira, otsutsana - {textend} ndipo adataya zaka zisanu ndi zitatu chifukwa cha kachitidwe kosweka.

Anali katswiri wazamaganizidwe pachipatala chazovuta omwe pamapeto pake amaphatikiza zidutswazo. Ndinafika kwa iye pafupi ndi chipatala chachitatu, ndikuyesera mwamphamvu kuti ndimvetsetse chifukwa chomwe sindinapezere bwino.

"Ndikulingalira ndili ndi bipolar, kapena m'malire, kapena ... sindikudziwa," ndidamuuza.

“Ndi zomwe inu mukuganiza, komabe? ” adandifunsa.

Ndinadabwa ndi funso lake, ndinapukusa mutu wanga pang'onopang'ono.

M'malo mongondipatsa funso la zizindikilo kuti ndiwone kapena kuwerenga mndandanda wazithandizo, amangoti, "Ndiuze zomwe zikuchitika."

Kotero ine ndinatero.

Ndidagawana nawo malingaliro okhumudwitsa, andizunza omwe amandizaza tsiku lililonse. Ndinamuuza za nthawi zomwe sindinathe kudziletsa kuti ndisamangokhalira kugogoda pamtengo kapena kuthyola khosi kapena kubwereza adilesi yanga m'mutu mwanga, komanso momwe ndimamvera ngati kuti ndasokonekera.

"Sam," adandiuza. "Akukuwuzani nthawi yayitali bwanji kuti muli ndi matenda ochititsa munthu kusinthasintha zochitika kapena mumalire?"

"Zaka zisanu ndi zitatu," ndinatero mokhumudwa.

Pochita mantha, adandiyang'ana nati, “Imeneyi ndi nkhani yodziwika bwino kwambiri yokhudza kukakamizidwa kwambiri komwe ndidawonapo. Ndikufuna ndidzaimbira dokotala wanu wamaganizidwe ndikulankhula naye. ”

Ndinagwedeza mutu, posowa chonena. Kenako adatulutsa laputopu yake ndipo pamapeto pake adandiwunika OCD.

Nditayang'ana zolemba zanga zachipatala pa intaneti usiku womwewo, kuchuluka kwa zilembo zosokoneza kuchokera kwa madokotala anga onse akale kunatha. M'malo mwake, panali chimodzi chokha: matenda osokoneza bongo.

Ngakhale sizingakhale zomveka, chowonadi ndichakuti, zomwe zidandichitikira ndizofala modabwitsa.

Mwachitsanzo, matenda a bipolar, sazindikira nthawi yake modabwitsa, nthawi zambiri chifukwa makasitomala omwe amakhala ndi zodetsa nkhawa nthawi zambiri samayesedwa kuti ndi omwe ali ndi vuto la kupuma, osakambirana za hypomania kapena mania.

OCD, mofananamo, amapezeka molondola pafupifupi theka la nthawiyo.

Izi ndichifukwa choti, mwa zina, sizimayang'aniridwa kawirikawiri. Zambiri zomwe OCD imagwira ndizo malingaliro a munthu. Ndipo pomwe wodwala aliyense yemwe ndidamuwona adandifunsa za momwe ndimakhalira, palibe m'modzi yemwe adandifunsa ngati ndili ndi malingaliro omwe amandidetsa nkhawa, kuposa malingaliro akudzipha.

Izi zitha kukhala kuphonya kovuta, chifukwa popanda kufufuza zomwe zimachitika m'maganizo, adaphonya chidutswa chofunikira kwambiri chazidziwitso: malingaliro anga okhudzidwa.

OCD wanga adanditsogolera kukhumudwa kokha chifukwa choti zovuta zanga sizinalandiridwe ndipo nthawi zambiri zimandipweteka. Othandizira ena, ndikawafotokozera zamisala zomwe ndidakumana nazo, mpaka kunditcha kuti psychotic.

ADHD yanga - {textend} yomwe sindinafunsidwepo - {textend} zimatanthauza kuti malingaliro anga, pomwe sindinatengere izi, ndimakhala wopupuluma, wokonda kuchita masewera olimbitsa thupi, komanso wolimbikira. Izi zimalakwitsidwa mobwerezabwereza ndi mtundu wina wa mania, chizindikiro china cha matenda osokoneza bongo.

Kusinthaku kudakulirakulira ndi matenda a anorexia, matenda ovuta kudya omwe adandipangitsa kukhala wopanda chakudya chokwanira, ndikuchulukitsa kukhudzika kwanga.Sindinayambe ndafunsidwa mafunso aliwonse okhudza chakudya kapena thupi, ngakhale - {textend} kotero kuti vuto langa la kudya silinaululidwe mpaka patadutsa nthawi yayitali.

Ichi ndichifukwa chake operekera 10 osiyanasiyana adandipeza kuti ndili ndi vuto la kusinthasintha kwa malingaliro kenako ndikumakhala ndi vuto la m'malire, mwa zina, ngakhale ndilibe zizindikilo zina za matendawa.

Ngati kuwunika kwa amisala kulephera kuwerengera njira zosavomerezeka zomwe odwala amaganiza, kupereka malipoti, ndikumakumana ndi zizindikilo zamaganizidwe, kuzindikira molakwika kumangopitilizabe.

Ikani njira ina, kufufuzira ndi zowunikira ndi zida, koma sizingasinthe kulumikizana kwadokotala ndi wodwala, makamaka mukamasulira njira zapadera zomwe munthu aliyense amafotokozera zizindikiro zawo.

Umu ndi momwe malingaliro anga okopa adatchulidwira mwachangu kuti "psychotic" ndi "dissociative" ndikusinthasintha kwa malingaliro anga otchedwa "bipolar." Ndipo zina zonse zikalephera, kulephera kwanga kuyankha chithandizo kumangokhala vuto ndi "umunthu" wanga.

Chofunikanso kwambiri, sindingachitire mwina koma kuzindikira mafunso omwe sanafunsidwepo:

• kaya ndimadya kapena ayi
• ndimaganizo amtundu wanji omwe ndimakhala nawo
• komwe ndimavutikira pantchito yanga

Iliyonse la mafunso awa likanawunikira zomwe zinali kuchitika kwenikweni.

Pali zisonyezo zambiri zomwe mwina ndikadazindikira ndikadangofotokozedwa m'mawu omwe amakhudzana ndi zomwe ndakumana nazo.

Ngati odwala sanapatsidwe malo omwe akufunikira kuti afotokozere zomwe adakumana nazo - {textend} ndipo sanalimbikitsidwe kugawana zonse zaumoyo wawo, ngakhale zomwe zimawoneka ngati "zopanda ntchito" momwe amayambirira pano - {textend} tikhala ndi chithunzi chosakwanira cha zomwe wodwalayo amafunikira.

Pamapeto pake ndimakhala ndi moyo wokwanira komanso wokhutiritsa, womwe umatheka pokhapokha ndikuzindikira matenda omwe ndimakhala nawo.

Koma ndasiyidwa ndikumira kozama. Ngakhale ndimatha kupitilira zaka 10 zapitazi, sindinathe kupirira.

Chowonadi nchakuti, mafunso ndi zokambirana mwachidule sizimangoganizira za munthu yense.

Ndipo popanda kuwonetsetsa bwino za wodwalayo, timakhala osavuta kuphonya ma nuances omwe amasiyanitsa zovuta monga OCD kuchokera ku nkhawa komanso kukhumudwa ndi matenda osokoneza bongo, pakati pa ena.

Odwala akafika pamavuto amisala, monga momwe amachitira nthawi zambiri, sangakwanitse kuchira.

Chifukwa kwa anthu ambiri, ngakhale chaka chimodzi chololedwa molakwika chimakhala pachiwopsezo chowataya - {textend} ku kutopa kwamankhwala kapena kudzipha - {textend} asadakhale ndi mwayi woti achire.

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