Ndasiya Kuyamwitsa Kuti Ndiyambirenso Kugwiritsa Ntchito Maganizo Anga

Zamkati

• Panalibe kukonza kosavuta
• Zinali zoposa kungoyamwitsa

Ana anga akuyenera kukhala ndi mayi amene ali pachibwenzi komanso wathanzi komanso wamisala. Ndipo ndiyenera kusiya manyazi omwe ndidakhala nawo.

Mwana wanga wamwamuna adabwera padziko lapansi akufuula pa February 15, 2019. Mapapu ake anali owuma mtima, thupi lake linali laling'ono komanso lamphamvu, ndipo ngakhale anali ndi masabata awiri koyambirira anali wamkulu "wathanzi" ndi kulemera.

Tidalumikizana nthawi yomweyo.

Anakhazikika popanda vuto. Anali pachifuwa changa zisanatsekeke zanga.

Ndinaganiza kuti ichi ndi chizindikiro chabwino. Ndinkalimbana ndi mwana wanga wamkazi. Sindinadziwe komwe ndingamuike kapena momwe ndingamugwirire, ndipo kusatsimikizika kunandidetsa nkhawa. Kulira kwake kudadulidwa ngati mapanga miliyoni, ndipo ndidadzimva ngati wolephera - "amayi oyipa."

Koma maola omwe ndimakhala mchipatala ndi mwana wanga (sindinganene) anali osangalatsa. Ndidakhala wodekha komanso wodekha. Zinthu sizinali zabwino chabe, zinali zabwino.

Tidzakhala bwino, Ndimaganiza. Ndikanakhala bwino.

Komabe, m'mene masabata amapita - ndikusowa tulo - zinthu zinasintha. Maganizo anga anasintha. Ndipo ndisanazindikire, ndinachita ziwalo chifukwa cha kupsa mtima, chisoni, ndi mantha. Ndinali kuyankhula ndi wazamisala wanga za kukweza mankhwala anga.

Panalibe kukonza kosavuta

Nkhani yabwino inali yakuti matenda anga opanikizika amatha kusintha. Amawayesa "ogwirizana" ndi kuyamwitsa. Komabe, mankhwala anga opanikizika sanali othandiza monga momwe zimakhalira zolimbitsa thupi, zomwe - dokotala wanga anachenjeza - zitha kukhala zovuta chifukwa kumwa mankhwala opatsirana pogonana payekha kumatha kuyambitsa matenda amisala, psychosis, ndi mavuto ena kwa anthu omwe ali ndi vuto losokoneza bongo. Koma nditalingalira za maubwino ake ndi kuopsa kwake, ndinaganiza kuti mankhwala ena ndi abwino kuposa kumwa mankhwala.

Zinthu zinali zabwino kwakanthawi. Maganizo anga anasintha, ndipo mothandizidwa ndi dokotala wanga wamaganizo, ndinali kupanga njira yodzisamalirira. Ndipo ndinali kuyamwabe, zomwe ndimawona ngati wopambana kwenikweni.

Koma ndidayamba kulephera kudziletsa mwana wanga atangogunda miyezi 6. Ndinali kumwa kwambiri komanso kugona pang'ono. Kuthamanga kwanga kunayambira 3 mpaka 6 miles usiku, osachita, kukonzekera, kapena kuphunzira.

Ndinali kuwononga zinthu mopupuluma komanso mopanda phindu. Pakatha milungu iwiri, ndidagula zovala zingapo ndi makatoni, mabokosi, ndi zotengera zingapo kuti "ndikonze" nyumba yanga - kuyesa kulamulira malo anga ndi moyo wanga.

Ndinagula makina ochapira ndi kuwumitsira. Tidakhazikitsa mithunzi yatsopano ndi khungu. Ndili ndi matikiti awiri akuwonetsero ya Broadway. Ndidasungitsa tchuthi chabanja chachifupi.

Ndinkagwiranso ntchito zambiri kuposa momwe ndimakwanitsira. Ndine wolemba pawokha, ndipo ndidachoka pakulemba 4 kapena 5 nkhani sabata limodzi kupitilira 10. Koma chifukwa malingaliro anga anali othamanga komanso osasintha, zosintha zofunika kwambiri.

Ndinali ndi malingaliro ndi malingaliro koma ndimavutika ndikutsatira.

Ndinadziwa kuti ndiyenera kuyimbira dokotala wanga. Ndinkadziwa kuti kuthamanga kumeneku sikungatheke, ndipo pamapeto pake nditha kuwonongeka. Mphamvu zanga zowonjezeka, chidaliro, komanso chisangalalo zitha kumizidwa ndi kukhumudwa, mdima, ndikudzimvera chisoni pambuyo pa hypomanic, koma ndimachita mantha chifukwa ndimadziwanso tanthauzo la kuyimbaku: Ndiyenera kusiya kuyamwitsa.

Zinali zoposa kungoyamwitsa

Mwana wanga wamwamuna wazaka zisanu ndi ziwiri amayenera kuyamwa kuyamwa nthawi yomweyo, kutaya zakudya zopatsa thanzi komanso kutonthoza komwe amapeza mwa ine. Amayi ake.

Koma chowonadi ndichakuti amanditaya matenda anga amisala. Malingaliro anga adasokonekera ndikusowa pokhala kuti iye (ndi mwana wanga wamkazi) sanali kupeza mayi womvetsera kapena wabwino. Sanapeze kholo lomwe amayenera.

Kuphatikiza apo, ndidadyetsedwa chilinganizo. Amuna anga, mchimwene wanga, ndi amayi anga anadyetsedwa mkaka, ndipo tonse tinapeza bwino. Fomula imapatsa ana zakudya zofunikira kuti akule bwino.

Kodi izi zidapangitsa kuti chisankho changa chikhale chosavuta? Ayi.

Ndinkaonabe kuti ndine wolakwa komanso wamanyazi chifukwa "bere ndilabwino," sichoncho? Ndikutanthauza, ndizomwe ndinauzidwa. Ndi zomwe ndidatsogozedwa kuti ndikhulupirire. Koma maubwino azakudya zamkaka wam'mawere alibe nkhawa ngati mayi ali wathanzi. Ngati sindili wathanzi.

Dokotala wanga akupitilizabe kundikumbutsa kuti ndiyenera kuyika chigoba changa cha oxygen poyamba. Ndipo kufanizira uku ndi komwe kuli koyenera, ndipo komwe ofufuza ayamba kumvetsetsa.

Ndemanga yaposachedwa m'nyuzipepala ya Nursing for Women's Health ikulimbikitsa kuti pakhale kafukufuku wambiri wokhuza kupsinjika kwa amayi, komwe sikukhudzana ndi kuyamwitsa kokha koma komanso kupsinjika kwakukulu komwe amayi amapatsidwa kuti ayamwitse ana awo.

“Tikufuna kafukufuku wambiri pazomwe zimachitika kwa munthu amene akufuna kuyamwitsa komanso amene sangathe. Kodi akumva bwanji? Kodi izi ndi zomwe zimayambitsa kukhumudwa pambuyo pobereka? ” adafunsa Ana Diez-Sampedro, wolemba nkhaniyo komanso pulofesa wothandizirana naye ku Florida International University Nicole Wertheim College of Nursing & Health Science.

"Tikuganiza kuti kwa amayi, kuyamwitsa ndi njira yabwino kwambiri," adatero Diez-Sampedro. "Koma sizili choncho kwa amayi ena." Sizinali choncho kwa ine.

Chifukwa chake, chifukwa cha ine ndekha ndi ana anga, ndikuyamwitsa mwana wanga. Ndikugula mabotolo, ufa wosakanizidwa, ndi njira zakumwa. Ndikubwerera kuzipatala zanga zamaganizidwe chifukwa ndimayenera kukhala otetezeka, okhazikika, komanso athanzi. Ana anga akuyenera kukhala ndi mayi amene ali pachibwenzi komanso wamthupi labwino, ndipo kuti ndikhale munthu ameneyo, ndikufuna thandizo.

Ndikufuna mankhwala anga.

Kimberly Zapata ndi mayi, wolemba, komanso woimira zamatenda amisala. Ntchito yake yawonekera m'malo angapo, kuphatikiza Washington Post, HuffPost, Oprah, Wachiwiri, Makolo, Zaumoyo, ndi Amayi Owopsa - kungotchulapo ochepa - komanso mphuno zake sizinaikidwe m'ntchito (kapena buku labwino), Kimberly amathera nthawi yopuma akuthamanga Wamkulu Kuposa: Matenda, bungwe lopanda phindu lomwe cholinga chake ndikupatsa mphamvu ana ndi achikulire omwe ali ndi mavuto azaumoyo. Tsatirani Kimberly Facebook kapena Twitter.