Zosasinthidwa: Kupezanso Kutengeka Kwanga Ndikamayang'anizana ndi Khansa ya M'mawere

Kukhala osagwiritsa ntchito mankhwala ndi mwayi wapadera kwa ine, makamaka pano popeza ndili ndi gawo la 4. Chifukwa chake, pomwe ndingathe, ndizo zomwe ndikufuna kukhala.

“Sindikudziwa ngati ndingathe kuchita izi,” ndinachita chibwibwi ndikugwetsa misozi. IV idandigwira dzanja ndikumagwira iPhone yanga khutu langa ndikumvetsera mnzanga akuyesa kudutsa mwamantha ndikundikhazika mtima pansi.

Zolembazo zidasainidwa ndipo nthawi inali ikuyenda.

Chinsalu cha thonje chomwe chidakokedwa mozungulira bedi langa lokonzekera sichinateteze mawu, chifukwa chake ndimatha kumva anamwino akuyankhula za ine, okhumudwa kuti ndikugwirizira tsiku lawo.

Kutalika komwe ndimagona ndikulira, nthawi yayitali OR amakhala wopanda kanthu, ndikuchedwa kuchitidwa opaleshoni iliyonse pambuyo panga. Koma sindinathe kukhazikika.

Ndinachitidwapo opaleshoni imeneyi m'mbuyomu, ndipo vuto linali limodzi mwa mavutowo. Nditakhala chaka chatha ndikumva zowawa za khansa ya m'mawere ya siteji 3, ndinali nditapilira kale mastectomy amodzi, chifukwa chake ndimadziwa pang'ono za momwe opaleshoniyi ndi kuchira kwake kunali kovuta.

Tsopano ndinalibe khansa (monga momwe timadziwira), koma ndinali nditasankha kuti ndikufuna kuchotsa bere langa labwino kuti ndichepetse mwayi wanga wopeza khansa yatsopano ya m'mawere, potero ndikuchepetsa mwayi wanga wobwereza gehena anali chithandizo.

Chifukwa chake ndinali pano, wokonzeka ndi kukonzekera mawere anga achiwiri.

Sanali "bere chabe" Ndinali ndi zaka 25. Sindinkafuna kutaya chidwi chonse, kuti ndikalambe ndikuiwala momwe thupi langa limawonekera.

Ngakhale kuti ndinali nditadwala kale, dokotalayo anakonzanso zoti ndimalize kukonza khansa yanga. Ndinali ndi zotulutsa zanga zamkati, zomwe zinali pansi paminyewa yanga yam'mimba ndipo pang'onopang'ono ndimatambasula khungu langa ndi minofu yanga, pamapeto pake ndikupanga mphako yayikulu yokwanira kuyika silikoni.

Ndinali wofunitsitsa kuti ndisiye zotulutsa ngati konkriti zomwe zimakhala patali kwambiri pachifuwa panga. Zachidziwikire, popeza ndimasankhanso za prophylactic mastectomy, ndiyeneranso kubwereza njira yowonjezera mbali imeneyo.

M'kupita kwa nthawi, ndimaliza vutoli ndi makina awiri osakanikirana a silicone omwe analibe maselo amunthu omwe angagwirizane pamodzi kukhala chotupa.

Komabe, usiku watsiku lachiwirili kutulutsa ndi kuzika / kutulutsa kwa minofu kutuluka, sindinagonepo konse - {textend} ndimangoyang'ana nthawi, ndikuganiza Ndangokhala ndiMaola ena anayi ndi bere langa labwino. Maola ena atatu ndi bere langa.

Tsopano inali nthawi yopita, ndipo misonzi ikutsika m'masaya mwanga, ndimayesetsa kuti ndipume. Chinachake pansi pamtima chinali kukuwa ayi.

Sindinamvetsetse momwe ndinafikira pamenepo, ndikulira, osakhoza kuwalola anamwino kuti andiyendetse mu OR nditatha chaka chimodzi ndikufufuza ndikufufuza za moyo wanga ndi okondedwa anga.

Ndinkakhulupiriradi kuti ndinali pamtendere ndikukhala ndi minyewa yachiwiri - {textend} kuti izi zinali zabwino kwambiri, kuti ndizomwe ndimachita amafuna.

Kodi ndimangokhala wopanda mphamvu zokwanira kuti ndipitirire nayo pomwe kukankha kudayamba?

Ndinazindikira kuti kupanga zisankho zabwino sikuti ndimangofunika kuchita papepala nthawi zonse, koma ndikungodziwa zomwe ndingakhale nazo, chifukwa ndi ine ndekha amene ndimayenera kugona ndikudzuka tsiku lililonse ndikukhala ndi zotsatirapo zake chisankho.

Papepala, njira yodziyimira payokha yodziwikiratu imamveka bwino.

Zingachepetse - {textend} koma osachotsa - {textend} chiopsezo changa chokhala ndi khansa yatsopano ya m'mawere. Ndikuwoneka bwino, m'malo mokhala ndi bere limodzi lachilengedwe komanso limodzi.

Komabe, khansa yatsopano yatsopano sinakhale ngozi yayikulu kwambiri kwa ine.

Zingakhale zoyipa kupezanso mankhwala ndikadzadwalanso khansa yatsopano, koma zitha kukhala zovuta kwambiri ngati khansa yanga yoyambilira ibwereranso, kapena kufalikira kupitirira bere langa. Izi zitha kuwopseza moyo wanga, ndipo njira yodalitsika yochita masewera olimbitsa thupi silingachite chilichonse kuti muchepetse zovuta zomwe zikuchitika.

Kuphatikiza apo, kuchira kwa mastectomy kumakhala kovuta komanso kowawa, ndipo ziribe kanthu zomwe aliyense anandiuza, bere langa linali gawo langa. Sanali "bere chabe"

Ndinali ndi zaka 25. Sindinkafuna kutaya chidwi chonse, kuti ndikalambe ndikuiwala momwe thupi langa limawonekera.

Ndinali nditataya kale zochuluka panthawi yonse yomwe ndimalandira chithandizo - khansa ya {textend} inali itanditengera kale zambiri. Sindinkafuna kutaya zambiri ndikapanda kutero.

Ndinafa ziwalo chifukwa cha kusokonezeka mutu komanso kukayikira.

Pamapeto pake ndidamva chitsulo chodziwika bwino chachitsulo pomwe chinsalu chimatseguka ndipo dotolo wanga wa pulasitiki - {textend} mayi wofunda, wokoma mtima wokhala ndi mwana wamkazi wazaka zanga - {textend} adalowa.

"Ndidayankhula ndi dokotala wanu wa mawere," adalengeza, "ndipo sitimva bwino kuchita izi. Machiritso anu akhoza kusokonekera ngati mungachitidwe opaleshoni yayikulu kwambiri, yokhumudwitsa iyi. Tikukupatsani mphindi zochepa kuti mukhale bata, kenako tipitiliza ndikubwezeretsani chida chanu - {textend} koma sitichita mastectomy. Upita kwanu usikuuno. ”

Mpumulo unandidutsa. Zinali ngati ndi mawu amenewa, dokotalayo anali atandiponyera chidebe chamadzi ozizira nditakodwa pamoto, malawi akuyenda mthupi langa. Ndidapumanso.

Patatha masiku angapo, chitsimikiziro chokhazikika m'matumbo mwanga kuti ndidapanga chisankho choyenera. Kuti madokotala anga anali atandipangira chisankho choyenera.

Ndinazindikira kuti kupanga zisankho zabwino sikuti ndimangofunika kuchita papepala nthawi zonse, koma ndikungodziwa zomwe ndingakhale nazo, chifukwa ndi ine ndekha amene ndimayenera kugona ndikudzuka tsiku lililonse ndikukhala ndi zotsatirapo zake chisankho.

Ndi za kusefa mkokomo wonse wakunja mpaka nditha kumvanso manong'onong'o opanda phokoso a zomwe timazitcha kuti intuition - {textend} liwu lobisalira lomwe limadziwa zomwe zimandiyenera, koma limizidwa ndi mantha komanso zoopsa.

M'chaka cha chemo ndi radiation ndi maopaleshoni ndi maudindo osatha, ndinali nditataya mwayi wanga wodziwiratu nzeru.

Ndinkafunika nthawi yotalikirana ndi azachipatala kuti ndiipezenso. Nthawi yoti ndidziwe kuti ndine ndani kupatula wodwala khansa.

Chifukwa chake ndidamaliza gawo langa lachitatu ndi vuto limodzi lokhalanso ndi chifuwa chimodzi. Ndidayesetsa kuti ndikonzanso moyo wanga. Ndinayambiranso chibwenzi, ndinakumana ndikukwatira mwamuna wanga, ndipo tsiku lina ndinazindikira kuti kusagwira ntchito ndi njira yochitira.

Pozengereza kupanga chisankho, ndinali nditapanga chisankho.

Sindinkafuna prophylactic mastectomy. Zotsatira zake, ngakhale malingaliro anga adadziwa zomwe zikubwera kapena ayi, ndidatsiriza zaka ziwiri pambuyo pake.

Poletsa chiberekero chachiwiri, ndinali nditadzipereka pafupifupi zaka ziwiri kuti ndikwere ndi anzanga ndikudumphadumpha m'mitsinje ndi mwamuna wanga tsopano. Sindikadatha kukumbukira izi ndikadakhala kuti ndimagwiritsa ntchito nthawi yanga pakati pa gawo 3 ndi gawo la 4 chithandizo chamankhwala ambiri.

Zosankha izi ndizapadera, ndipo sindidzanena kuti ndikudziwa zomwe zingapindulitse munthu wina.

Kwa mayi wina momwemonso, prophylactic mastectomy iyenera kuti inali gawo lofunikira pakumvetsetsa kwake. Za ine, m'malo mokhulupirira kuti 'ndiyenera kukhala ndi ma symmetrical, mawere ofananira kuti ndikhale wokongola' ndikulimba mtima kuti zipsera zanga ndizachigololo chifukwa zikuyimira kupirira, mphamvu, komanso kupulumuka kunandithandiza kupita mtsogolo.

Kuchira kwanga kudalira kwambiri kuphunzira kuphunzira kukhala pachiwopsezo ndi zosadziwika (ntchito yomwe ikuchitika) kuposa momwe thupi langa lotsatira khansa lidawonekera. Ndipo nthawi ina ndinazindikira kuti ndikapanga pulayimale yatsopano, ndidzatha.

Kunena zowona, ndikadavomera pafupifupi chilichonse chakuchita opaleshoni, njira, ndi chithandizo kuti ndipulumuke.

Koma pamene moyo wanga suli pachiwopsezo - {textend} ndikakhala ndi mwayi wokhala china osati wodwala - {textend} Ndikufuna kulanda. Kukhala moyo wosagwiritsa ntchito mankhwala ndi chinthu chosowa kwambiri kwa ine, makamaka tsopano popeza ndili gawo 4.

Chifukwa chake, pamene ndingathe, ndizo zomwe ndikufuna kukhala.

Zosasinthidwa.

Atapezeka ndi khansa ya m'mawere ya zaka 3 pa 25 ndi siteji 4 ya khansa ya m'mawere ya 29, Rebecca Hall wakhala wolimbikitsa mtima pagulu la khansa ya m'mawere, akugawana nawo nkhani yake ndikupempha kupita patsogolo pakufufuza ndikuwonjezera chidziwitso. Rebecca akupitiliza kufotokozera zomwe adakumana nazo kudzera pa blog yake Khansa, Mutha Kuziyamwa. Zolemba zake zafalitsidwa mu Glamour, Wildfire, ndi The Underbelly. Wakhala wokamba nkhani pazochitika zitatu zolembedwera ndipo adafunsidwa mafunso pa ma podcast angapo ndi mawayilesi. Zolemba zake zasinthidwa kukhala kanema wamfupi, wopanda kanthu. Kuphatikiza apo, Rebecca amapereka makalasi a yoga aulere kwa amayi omwe akhudzidwa ndi khansa. Amakhala ku Santa Cruz, California ndi amuna awo ndi galu.