'Woperewera Kwambiri' Wophunzitsa Erica Lugo Pa Chifukwa Chomwe Kudya Kusokonezeka Ndi Nkhondo Yamoyo Wonse

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Erica Lugo akufuna kukonza izi: Sanali muvuto lakudya kwake pomwe amawoneka ngati mphunzitsi pa Wotayika Kwambiri mu 2019. Wophunzitsa masewera olimbitsa thupi anali, komabe, akukumana ndi malingaliro ambiri omwe adawazindikira kuti ndi ovuta komanso owopsa.

"Binging and purging ndi zomwe ndidachita pasanathe chaka, kuposa zaka zisanu zapitazo," akutero. "Chinthu chimodzi chomwe atolankhani adachichotsa pamalingaliro awo ndikuti ndimadwala matenda akudya pomwe ndimakhala pawonetsero - sindinavutike ndi vuto la kudya pawonetsero, ndimavutika ndimalingaliro a vuto la kudya pa Pali kusiyana kwakukulu. Monga munthu amene ali ndi vuto la kudya, pamakhala chikondwerero m'mutu mwanu mukamatha chaka chimodzi osakonzeka. Nditha kulira chifukwa ndidakondwerera zaka zisanu - kenako ndikuwerenga nkhani yonena kuti ndidali nayo . Zili ngati kundimenya mbama chifukwa cha khama limene ndachita.

Ngakhale Lugo amadziona kuti alibe khalidwe lodziletsa komanso lodzitchinjiriza lomwe limakhudzana ndi bulimia, satetezedwa ku zitsenderezo za anthu kapena ziyembekezo zosayembekezereka zomwe zimaperekedwa kwa ophunzitsa kuti agwirizane ndi kukongola kosasinthika. Chifukwa chake pomwe troll wa Instagram adasiya ndemanga pazomwe adalemba sabata zingapo zapitazo, adakakamizika kuti ayankhe pagulu. Ndemanga yomwe ikufunsidwa? "Mukuwoneka wamkulu komanso wosagawanika. Kwa munthu amene amadya bwino ndikugwira ntchito zambiri ndinu wamkulu. Mungafune kusakhala mphunzitsi wa zaumoyo." (Yokhudzana: Kusuntha Kokwanira: Erica Lugo's Super Plank Series)

Lugo akuti chovalacho sichinali chapadera. Wakhala akuyenda ndemanga zosavomerezeka komanso zopanda chidziwitso pathupi lake kuyambira pomwe adataya mapaundi opitilira 150, adapulumuka ku matenda a khansa ya chithokomiro, ndikusintha moyo wake kukhala mphunzitsi wodziwika bwino pa nsanja yophunzitsira pa intaneti, Erica Love Fit - zonse uku akulemba. zochitika zake pazanema. Koma atadzuka ndi ndemangayi koyambirira kwa mwezi uno, adawona ngati nthawi yophunzitsira.

"Munthu wina atanena kuti ndine wamkulu ndipo mwina sindiyenera kukhala mphunzitsi wazachipatala, ndimaganiza kuti inali nthawi yoti ndiyankhule njovu m'chipindacho," akutero. "Ndidapeza mapaundi a 10 kuyambira pomwe ndidalemba zaka zopitilira ziwiri chifukwa ndidabwerera kuchipatala chifukwa cha omwe amadya matenda amisala. Ndidayenera kuyika malingaliro ndi zochita. Wina sangakhale bulimic kapena anorexic, koma sizitanthauza alibe malingaliro kapena amafuna kuyeretsa chakudya kapena kuletsa chakudya kapena kuchita masewera olimbitsa thupi kapena atengedwa kukhala akapolo a maganizo awo osokonezeka maganizo. Sangochokapo ayi."

Kubwerera m'mbuyo, Lugo amatha kuwona zizindikiro zomveka bwino zosonyeza kuti malingaliro ake ayamba kubwerera kudera losalongosoka, ngakhale kuti sanachitepo kanthu motengera zomwe akufuna kuchita ndi bulimia.

"Mukataya kulemera kwamtundu uliwonse, mumakhala oopa kuti abwerera ndipo nthawi zonse mumayesetsa kuti muchepetse kunenepa," akutero. "Ndinali ndi nkhawa yanga mkati mwanga, 'oh shit, tsopano ndiyeneradi kusunga izi.' Ndinkangowerengera chilichonse chomwe ndimadya ndikugwira ntchito masiku asanu ndi limodzi pa sabata ndikupeza masitepe a X patsiku. Sizinali zachilendo, 'o ndikufuna kuyenda ndikusamba bwino,' anali, 'ayi, Erica, iwe Ndiyenera kuchita izi, 'ndipo sindine ameneyo. Ndine amene ndakhala ngati,' tsopano popeza mwachepetsa thupi, onetsetsani kuti mukusungabe ndikusuntha thupi lanu ndikudya athanzi, ndipo ngati muli ndi chidutswa cha pitsa, uli ndi chidutswa cha pizza ndipo pitirira.' Ichi ndichifukwa chake nditatsiriza pulogalamuyi ndinapemphanso thandizo chifukwa kuti ndinene kuti, 'uyenera kuyima pa ma calories a X kapena kugunda kuchuluka kwa kalori pa wotchi yanu,' sizachilendo kwa ine, ndipo ndimadziwa kuti chipale chofewa mumakhalidwe akale ndikasiya. "

Amakhulupirira kuti kulemera kwa mapaundi 10 atabwerera kuchipatala kumayambiriro kwa chaka chino kunali kubwezeretsa kwabwino. Zinali zotsatira za kubwerera ku malo okhazikika pambuyo pokhala okhwima kwambiri ndi kuwerengera kalori ndi kuchita masewera olimbitsa thupi.

Lugo anayamba kufunafuna chithandizo pafupifupi zaka zisanu ndi chimodzi zapitazo pamene ankangodya chakudya nthawi zonse. Iye anati: “Ndinali nditayamba kale kulemera, ndipo ndinali paubwenzi woipa kwambiri. "Inalinso nthawi yomwe Instagram inali itayamba kale, anthu adayamba kumvera chidwi ndi" otsogolera, "ndipo 'kukopa' omwe adalimbikitsa adakhala chinthu chachikulu kwambiri. Pakati pazovuta za ubale wovutitsa womwewo - ubale woyamba womwe ndikadakhala nawo ndakhalapo kuyambira chisudzulo changa [mu 2014] - ndipo nditasintha kwambiri thupi langa, ndidayamba kuwerenga ndemanga zoyipa izi zapaintaneti ndipo zidandikakamiza kuti ndipeze njira yopezerapo mwayi. "

Iye akupitiriza kuti: “Ndi pamene vuto la kadyedwe limeneli linayamba pafupifupi zaka zisanu ndi chimodzi zapitazo. ndipo zidandiwopsa. (Kuchulukitsa ndi kuyeretsa kwa bulimia kumatha kubweretsa kusamvana kwamagetsi ndi kusokoneza kwa mankhwala komwe kumatha kukhudza kugwira ntchito kwa mtima, malinga ndi National Eating Disorder Association.)

Ngakhale kuti chithandizo chake chinamuthandiza Lugo kuti apewe matenda a bulimia, matenda ake a khansa komanso mphepo yamkuntho yomwe idatsatira idamulepheretsa kudzisamalira. "Ndidapezeka ndi khansa tsiku lotsatira Thanksgiving mu 2018, ndidachitidwa opaleshoni mu Januware 2019, radiation mu Marichi 2019, kenako ndikuyamba Wotayika Kwambiri mu Ogasiti 2019, "akutero." Ndinalibe nthawi yoti ndizisamalira ndekha ndi malingaliro anga - zinali zongopulumuka ndikugwiritsa ntchito adrenaline, chifukwa chake ndikuganiza kuti ndinanyalanyaza zonse zomwe ndidaphunzira kuchipatala kwanthawi yayitali kotero kuti malingaliro akale aja machitidwe anayamba kubwerera. Ndinazisiya zoposa chaka chimodzi [ndipo ndikuganiza] ndizomwe zidapangitsa kuti zibwerere chifukwa sindimadzisamalira ndekha komanso malingaliro anga. Zimangokuwonetsani kuti ngakhale mutakhala ndi vuto lotani kapena zovuta zina, ndichinthu chomwe muyenera kusamalira chifukwa chitha kubwereranso ngati simutero. "

Lugo adayamba kuzindikira malingaliro ake akubwerera kumalo ovuta pomwe anali kujambula chiwonetserocho, koma adakwanitsa kusiya zizolowezi, akuyitanitsa zida zomwe adapanga m'zaka zake zonse zam'mbuyomu. Komabe, chiyeso chobwerera kumakhalidwewo chinali chachikulu.

"Sizinali zovuta za wina koma zanga, ndipo kwenikweni aliyense pawonetsero, kuchokera kwa opanga mpaka pa intaneti, anali odabwitsa ndipo nthawi zonse amandipangitsa kukhala wokongola komanso wamkulu," akutero. "Ndidadzikakamiza ndekha ndipo malingalirowo adayamba kubwerera. Ndidasiya chithandizo chifukwa ndimamva ngati ndikuwongolera. Koma zomwe anthu samamvetsetsa ndikuti, simungakhale ndi vuto lakudya, koma malingaliro amenewo. sichichokapo. Ndi china chake chomwe chingakusowereni moyo wanu wonse. Zili ngati satana pang'ono m'mutu mwanga ndipo ndikayang'ana chakudya china, mdierekezi adzati, 'izi ndizosavuta kuzichotsa, zidzabwera mosavuta, 'kapena' Hei, idyani izi ndikuyeretseni pambuyo pake - palibe amene angadziwe. ' Ndipo ndicho china chake - ndikumva zowawa ngakhale ndikunena pano chifukwa sindinalankhulepo momasuka. " (Zokhudzana: Momwe Coronavirus Lockdown Ingakhudzire Kuchira Kwa Matenda Odyera - ndi Zomwe Mungachitire Pazo)

Kusintha kwenikweni komwe kunalimbikitsa Lugo kufunafunanso chithandizo kunabwera pambuyo pa tsiku lovuta kwambiri. Iye anati: “Ndinali wotopa. "Lidakhala tsiku la maola 15, sitinathetse vutoli, ndipo ndinali ndidakali watsopano kujambula - palibe amene amadziwa kuti ndili pachiwonetserocho, chifukwa chake ndimayenera kusunga chinsinsi kotero kuti ndilibe wina woti ndiyankhule naye Chifukwa ndimayenera kuyisunga ndikakulunga.Ndidadya pitsa chifukwa tidadya zokhwasula-khwasu usiku, ndikupita kwathu kunyumba, komwe kunali pafupifupi mphindi 45, ndimangoganiza, 'mutha kupita kunyumba kukatsuka palibe amene adzadziwa. ' Ndipo ndinakhala m’chipinda chosambira mawondo anga ali pachifuwa usiku wonse, ndikungoganiza kuti, ‘Erica, unagwira ntchito kwa zaka zisanu, n’chifukwa chiyani maganizo amenewa akubweranso? Chifukwa chake nditabwerera kuchokera kojambula komanso kuwonera atolankhani, ndidadziwa kuti ndiyenera kubwereranso kuchipatala. ”

Panali zochitika zina zodabwitsa zomwe zidamukakamiza Lugo kubwerera kuchipatala, nayenso. "Mmodzi mwa abwenzi akale a amuna anga adamwalira ndi vuto lakudya chaka chatha," akutero. "Adamwalira ali ndi zaka 38-zaka. Sikoyenera kuchita. Nditakwanitsa zaka zisanu ndikuyeretsa ndipo adamwalira chaka chatha, chinali chilimbikitso chachikulu kuti ndipitilize kuchira ndiulendo wanga ndikugawana nawo anthu. "

Mliriwo utagunda, Lugo adagwiritsa ntchito njira yomwe adapumira panjira yake kuti adzichiritse. "Ndidakhala ndi nthawi yonseyi kuti ndipereke chithandizo chapaintaneti," akutero. "Choncho popeza kutsekedwa kulidi pamene ndakhala ndikubwereranso kuchipatala chifukwa izi sizimachoka. Chifukwa chakuti muli ndi zida zonse sizikutanthauza kuti, 'chabwino zapita.'

Lugo akunena kuti m’chaka chapitachi ndi theka, wakwanitsa kupezanso phazi lake polimbana ndi maganizo ovutika kudya. "Ndili pamalo osangalala komanso athanzi ndipo sindinenso mkaidi wosankha zakudya kapena kuchita masewera olimbitsa thupi nthawi zonse chifukwa ndimasiya kupanikizika," akutero. "Ndinaganiza kuti yakwana nthawi yoti nditsegule ndipo ndikufuna kuti ndizidziwitse ena za izi chifukwa ndikudziwa ngati ndavutika mwakachetechete, sindingathe kulingalira kuti ndi anthu angati akuvutika mwakachetechete." (Zokhudzana: Ulendo Wochepetsa Kuonda wa Erica Lugo Umamupangitsa Kukhala Mmodzi mwa Ophunzitsa Omwe Amadziwika Kwambiri)

Ngakhale kuyambiranso kwa malingaliro osokonezeka panthawi yojambula, Lugo akuti amayamikira nsanja Wotayika Kwambiri zamupatsa iye. "Ndinali wokondwa kwambiri kufika pawonetsero chifukwa kwa nthawi yoyamba, panali mphunzitsi yemwe analibe ma phukusi asanu ndi limodzi komanso anali ndi khungu lotayirira ndipo sanali kukula 0 kapena 2," akutero. "Zinali zosemphana ndi zomwe zinali zachilendo, ndipo ndinali wokondwa nazo. Tikamadutsa malo ochezera a pa TV, timamva nthawi zonse, 'ndichowoneka bwino kwambiri ndipo simukuwona mseri,' ndipo anthu adayamba kuzindikira kuti ine kunenepa kuyambira ndili pa TV, koma zomwe sadziwa ndikuti ndine wokondwa kwambiri komanso wathanzi lomwe ndidakhalapo, ndipo samazindikira kuti pali nkhondo zambiri zomwe anthu akuzipanga ndikuzisunga. okha. "

Kwa ena omwe akukumana ndi vuto la kudya kapena malingaliro aliwonse ovuta ndi machitidwe okhudzana ndi zakudya, masewera olimbitsa thupi, kulemera, kapena maonekedwe a thupi, Lugo amalimbikitsa kufunafuna zothandizira, monga NEDA. “Limodzi mwa mawu amene ndimawakonda kwambiri ndi lakuti, ‘matenda amayenda bwino m’zinsinsi,’ ndipo ukadzibisira chinsinsi nthawi yaitali n’kukana kupempha thandizo, m’pamenenso kumakhala kovuta kwambiri kukhala ndi moyo wosangalala ndiponso wathanzi,” iye akutero. "Ndipo" kukhala wathanzi "sikukutanthauza kukula kwa mathalauza; zikutanthauza kuti mukukhala bwanji? Mukudzikonda bwanji? Kapena mukudwala mobisa? Mutha kufunafuna thandizo ndipo aliyense amavutika mpaka pamlingo wina, ngakhale zitanthauza kuchepetsa zopatsa mphamvu kapena kuchita masewera olimbitsa thupi tsiku lililonse kapena ngati ndi anorexia kapena bulimia. Ndizofunikira kwambiri, makamaka ndi nsanja yomwe ndili nayo, kukhala womasuka komanso wowona mtima pa izi. "

Ngati mukulimbana ndi vuto la kudya, mutha kuyimbira foni ku National Eating Disorders Helpline kwaulere (800) -931-2237, kambiranani ndi wina ku myneda.org/helpline-chat, kapena lemberani NEDA kwa 741-741 kwa 24/7 thandizo lamavuto.

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