Ndinapeza Mapaundi 140 Akumenya Khansa. Nazi Momwe Ndabwererera Thanzi Langa.

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Zithunzi: Courtney Sanger

Palibe amene amaganiza kuti atenga khansa, makamaka ophunzira azaka 22 zakukoleji omwe amaganiza kuti sangathenso kuthana nawo. Komabe, izi ndi zomwe zinachitika kwa ine mu 1999. Ndinali kuchita internship pa bwalo la mipikisano ku Indianapolis, zomwe zinali m'maloto anga, pamene tsiku lina kusamba kunayamba-ndipo sikunayime. Kwa miyezi itatu, ndimakhala ndikutuluka magazi nthawi zonse. Potsirizira pake pambuyo pa kuikidwa mwazi kuŵiri (inde, kunali koipa chotero!) dokotala wanga anandilangiza opaleshoni kuti awone chimene chinali kuchitika. Pakati pa opareshoni, adapeza khansa ya chiberekero ya siteji. Zinali zosokoneza kwathunthu, koma ndinali wotsimikiza mtima kulimbana nazo. Ndinatenga semester ku koleji ndikusamukira kunyumba ndi makolo anga. Ndinachitidwa opaleshoni yochotsa mimba yonse. (Nazi zinthu 10 zomwe zingayambitse nthawi yanu yosakhazikika.)

Nkhani yabwino inali yoti opareshoni idapeza khansa yonse ndipo ndidayamba kukhululukidwa. Nkhani zoipa? Chifukwa adatenga chiberekero changa ndi thumba losunga mazira, ndimafika kumapeto - inde, kusintha kwa thupi, m'ma 20-ngati khoma la njerwa. Kusintha kwa msambo nthawi iliyonse ya moyo sichinthu chosangalatsa kwambiri. Koma monga mtsikana, zinali zopweteka kwambiri. Amandipatsa mankhwala obwezeretsa mahomoni, komanso kuwonjezera pazotsatira zoyipa (monga utsi wamaubongo ndi kutentha), ndinakhalanso wonenepa kwambiri. Ndinasiya kukhala mtsikana wothamanga amene ankapita kumalo ochitira masewera olimbitsa thupi pafupipafupi ndipo ndinkasewera ndi timu ya softball yopanga masewera olimbitsa thupi ndikupeza mapaundi oposa 100 m'zaka zisanu.

Komabe, ndinatsimikiza mtima kukhala ndi moyo ndipo kuti ndisalole zimenezi kundikhumudwitsa. Ndinaphunzira kukhala ndi moyo wabwino m'thupi langa latsopano, pambuyo pake, ndinali wokondwa kuti ndidali komweko! Koma nkhondo yanga ndi khansa inali isanathe. Mu 2014, miyezi ingapo nditamaliza digiri yanga ya masters, ndidayamba kuchita masewera olimbitsa thupi. Adotolo adapeza chotupa pakhosi panga. Nditayesedwa kambiri, ndidapezeka kuti ndili ndi khansa ya chithokomiro. Zinalibe kanthu kochita ndi khansa yanga yakale; Sindinakhale ndi mwayi wokwanira kuti ndigundidwe ndi mphenzi kawiri. Zinali zopweteka kwambiri, mwakuthupi komanso mwamaganizidwe. Ndinachitidwa opaleshoni yochotsa chithokomiro.

Nkhani yabwino inali yakuti, kachiwiri, iwo anadwala khansara ndipo ine ndinali mu chikhululukiro. Nkhani zoipa nthawi ino? Chithokomiro ndichofunikira kwambiri kuti mahomoni azigwira bwino ntchito monga momwe mazira amakhalira, ndipo kutaya kwanga kunandiponyera ku gehena yamoto mobwerezabwereza. Osangoti izi, koma ndidakumana ndi vuto losowa chifukwa cha opareshoni yomwe idandisiya ndikulephera kulankhula kapena kuyenda. Zinanditengera chaka chathunthu kuti ndizitha kuyankhulanso bwinobwino ndikuchita zinthu zazing'ono monga kuyendetsa galimoto kapena kuyenda mozungulira. Mosakayikira, izi sizinapangitse kuti kuchira kukhale kosavuta. Ndinapezanso mapaundi 40 pambuyo pa opaleshoni ya chithokomiro.

Ku koleji ndimakhala mapaundi 160. Tsopano ndinali ndi zaka zopitilira 300. Koma sikuti kulemera kwake ndi komwe kunkandisowetsa nkhawa. Ndinali woyamikira kwambiri kwa thupi langa pa chirichonse chimene likanakhoza kuchita, ine sindikanakhoza kukwiya nacho chifukwa cha kulemera mwachibadwa poyankha kusinthasintha kwa mahomoni. Zomwe zinkandidetsa nkhawa zinali zonse sanathe kuchita. Mu 2016, ndidaganiza zopita ku Italy ndi gulu la alendo. Imeneyi inali njira yabwino kwambiri yochokera m'malo anga abwino, kupeza anzanga atsopano, ndikuwona zinthu zomwe ndimalota m'moyo wanga wonse. Tsoka ilo, dziko la Italy linali lokwera kwambiri kuposa momwe ndimayembekezera ndipo ndidavutika kuti ndipitirizebe kuyenda paulendowu. Mayi wina yemwe anali dokotala ku Northwestern University adandithandizira, komabe. Chifukwa chake bwenzi langa latsopano litandiuza kuti ndikafike kunyumba kwawo ndikachita nawo masewera olimbitsa thupi, ndidavomera.

"Gym Day" idafika ndipo ndidawonekera kutsogolo kwa Equinox komwe anali membala, ndikuchita mantha. Chodabwitsa, mzanga yemwe adokotala sanabwere, chifukwa chadzidzidzi zantchito yomaliza. Koma zidatenga kulimba mtima kwambiri kuti ndikafike kumeneko ndipo sindinkafuna kutaya mphamvu zanga, choncho ndinalowa. Munthu woyamba amene ndinakumana naye mkati anali mphunzitsi wanga dzina lake Gus, yemwe adandipempha kuti andiyendere.

Chosangalatsa ndichakuti, tidayamba kulumikizana ndi khansa: Gus adandiuza momwe amasamalirira makolo ake onse nthawi yomwe amalimbana ndi khansa, chifukwa chake amvetsetsa komwe ndimachokera komanso zovuta zomwe ndimakumana nazo. Ndiyeno, pamene tinali kudutsa m’kabwalo, anandiuza za phwando la kuvina panjinga lomwe likuchitika pa Equinox ina chapafupi. Iwo anali kuchita Cycle for Survival, ulendo wachifundo wa 16-mzinda womwe umapeza ndalama zothandizira maphunziro a khansa osowa, mayesero a zachipatala, ndi zochitika zazikulu zofufuza, motsogoleredwa ndi Memorial Sloan Kettering Cancer Center mogwirizana ndi Equinox. Zinkawoneka zosangalatsa, koma palibe chomwe ndimaganiza kuti ndikuchita-ndipo pachifukwa chomwecho, ndinapanga cholinga chodzatenga nawo gawo pa Kupulumuka tsiku lina. Ndidalembetsa umembala ndikusungitsa maphunziro aumwini ndi Gus. Zinali zina mwa zosankha zabwino kwambiri zomwe ndinapangapo.

Kukhala wathanzi sikunabwere mosavuta. Gus adandiyambitsa pang'onopang'ono ndi yoga ndikuyenda mu dziwe. Ndinachita mantha ndi mantha; Ndinali nditazolowera kuwona thupi langa ngati "losweka" kuchokera ku khansa kwakuti zinali zovuta kuti ndikhulupirire kuti limatha kuchita zinthu zovuta. Koma Gus anandilimbikitsa ndipo ankasuntha nane kulikonse kuti ndisakhale ndekha. M’kupita kwa chaka (2017), tinagwira ntchito kuyambira pa mfundo zofatsa kupita pa njinga ya m’nyumba, kusambira pamiyendo, Pilates, nkhonya, ngakhalenso kusambira panja ku Lake Michigan. Ndinazindikira kukonda zinthu zonse zolimbitsa thupi ndipo posakhalitsa ndimagwira ntchito masiku asanu kapena asanu ndi limodzi pa sabata, nthawi zina kawiri patsiku. Koma sizimamveka zolemetsa kapena zotopetsa kwambiri, popeza Gus adaonetsetsa kuti azichita zosangalatsa. (FYI, kuchita masewera olimbitsa thupi kungathandizenso kupewa khansa.)

Kulimbitsa thupi kunasinthanso momwe ndimaganizira za chakudya: Ndidayamba kudya moganizira kwambiri ngati njira yowonjezerera thupi langa, kuphatikiza kuchita kangapo pazakudya za Whole30. M’chaka chimodzi, ndinatsika ndi mapaundi 62. Ngakhale sichinali cholinga changa chachikulu - ndimafuna kuti ndikhale wolimba ndikuchiritsa - ndinali wokonda zitsatazo.

Kenako mu February 2018, Cycle for Survival idachitikanso. Nthawi ino, sindinkawonera panja. Sikuti ndidangotenga nawo mbali, koma Gus ndi ine tidatsogolera magulu atatu limodzi! Aliyense atha kutenga nawo mbali, ndipo ndidasonkhanitsa anzanga onse ndi abale anga. Chinali chinthu chofunikira kwambiri paulendo wanga wolimbitsa thupi ndipo sindinakhalepo wonyada kwambiri. Pomaliza ulendo wanga wotalika ola lachitatu, ndinali ndikulira misozi yachimwemwe. Ndidaperekanso mawu omaliza pamwambo wa Chicago Cycle for Survival.

Ndabwera mpaka pano, sindikudzizindikira ndekha-ndipo sikuti ndangotsika masayizi azovala zisanu. Zitha kukhala zowopsa kukankhira thupi lanu mutadwala kwambiri ngati khansa, koma kulimbitsa thupi kwandithandiza kuwona kuti sindine wofooka. Ndipotu, ndine wamphamvu kuposa momwe ndimaganizira. Kuchita bwino kwandipatsa mphamvu yakudzidalira komanso mtendere wamumtima. Ndipo ngakhale kuti n’kovuta kuti ndisadandaule za kudwalanso, ndimadziŵa kuti tsopano ndili ndi zida zodzisamalira.

Kodi ndikudziwa bwanji? Tsiku lina ndinali ndi tsiku loipa kwambiri ndipo m'malo mopita kunyumba ndi keke yamtengo wapatali komanso botolo la vinyo, ndinapita kukalikiliki. Ndinakhadzula matako a khansa kawiri, nditha kuyambiranso ndikafunika. (Chotsatira: Werengani momwe azimayi ena amagwiritsira ntchito zolimbitsa thupi kuti alandire matupi awo atatha khansa.)

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