Overeaters Anonymous Anapulumutsa Moyo Wanga - Koma Apa pali chifukwa chomwe ndinasiyira

Zamkati

• Pogwidwa ndi chibadwa chake, bulimia imatha kupezeka kwa nthawi yayitali.
• Ndinkamwa kwambiri, ndikuletsa, ndikutsuka pazifukwa zomwezi zomwe mwina ndidayamba kumwa mowa kapena kugwiritsa ntchito mankhwala osokoneza bongo - {textend} adasokoneza mphamvu zanga ndikuthandizira ngati chithandizo chanthawi yomweyo cha ululu wanga.
• Zinsinsi zimamveka ngati mnzanga wapamtima, koma ku OA, mwadzidzidzi ndimagawana zomwe zakhala zikuchitika kwa nthawi yayitali ndi ena omwe adapulumuka ndikumamvera nkhani ngati zanga.
• Koma nditayambiranso kukhala ndi moyo wabwinobwino, zina mwa pulogalamuyi zidakhala zovuta kuvomereza.
• Nthawi zonse ndimayamika OA komanso wondithandizira chifukwa chonditulutsa mu dzenje lakuda pomwe zimawoneka ngati palibe njira.

Ndinkakonda kwambiri kutengeka ndikukakamira kotero ndidawopa kuti sindidzathawa.

Thanzi ndi thanzi zimakhudza aliyense wa ife mosiyanasiyana. Iyi ndi nkhani ya munthu m'modzi.

Ndinawerenga makeke okhala ndi shuga kumbuyo kwa sitoloyo nditadya chakudya chochepa kwambiri kwa milungu ingapo. Mitsempha yanga idanjenjemera ndikuyembekeza kuti kutulutsa kwa endorphin ndikungolira pakamwa.

Nthawi zina, "kudziletsa" kumabwera, ndipo ndimapitiliza kugula popanda kusokonezedwa ndi chidwi chofuna kudya kwambiri. Nthawi zina, sindinachite bwino kwambiri.

Vuto langa lakudya linali kuvina kovuta pakati pa chisokonezo, manyazi, ndi kulapa. Kudya kopanda pake mopanda chifundo kunatsatiridwa ndi machitidwe olipira monga kusala kudya, kuyeretsa, kuchita masewera olimbitsa thupi, komanso nthawi zina kugwiritsa ntchito mankhwala osokoneza bongo.

Matendawa adapitilizidwa ndi nthawi yayitali yoletsa kudya, yomwe idayamba ndili wachinyamata ndikuyamba kutha zaka 20.

Pogwidwa ndi chibadwa chake, bulimia imatha kupezeka kwa nthawi yayitali.

Anthu omwe ali ndi matendawa nthawi zambiri sawoneka ngati akudwala, koma mawonekedwe amatha kusocheretsa. Ziwerengero zimatiuza kuti pafupifupi munthu m'modzi mwa anthu 10 amalandila chithandizo, ndipo kudzipha kumayambitsa imfa.

Mofanana ndi anthu ambiri amene amadwala matenda a bulimia, sindinatengere zomwe anthu odwala matendawa amadwala. Kulemera kwanga kudasinthiratu mu matenda anga onse koma ndimangoyenda mozungulira pamiyeso, kotero kuti zovuta zanga sizinali zowoneka, ngakhale ndimakhala ndi njala kwa milungu ingapo.

Chikhumbo changa sichinayenera kukhala chochepera, koma ndinkalakalaka kwambiri kumverera kokhala wokhutira komanso wolamulira.

Vuto langa lakudya nthawi zambiri limakhala lofananira. Ndinkabisa chakudya m'matumba ndi m'matumba kuti ndibwerere kuchipinda changa. Ndinanyamuka kupita kukhitchini usiku ndikutulutsa zonse zomwe zinali m'kabati yanga ndi furiji mdziko lokhala ngati mizimu. Ndidadya mpaka kupweteka kupuma. Ndinkatsuka mosavomerezeka m'bafa, ndikuyatsa bomba kuti ndisamveke.

Masiku ena, zimangotengera kupatuka pang'ono kuti mulungamitse kumwa - {textend} chidutswa chowonjezera cha toast, mabwalo ambiri a chokoleti. Nthawi zina, ndimakonzekera pasadakhale ndikadasiya, osalekerera lingaliro lakudutsanso tsiku lina osakhala ndi shuga.

Ndinkamwa kwambiri, ndikuletsa, ndikutsuka pazifukwa zomwezi zomwe mwina ndidayamba kumwa mowa kapena kugwiritsa ntchito mankhwala osokoneza bongo - {textend} adasokoneza mphamvu zanga ndikuthandizira ngati chithandizo chanthawi yomweyo cha ululu wanga.

Popita nthawi, komabe, kukakamizidwa kudya mopitirira muyeso kunamveka kosayimika. Nditamwa mowa kwambiri, ndinkalimbana ndi chilakolako chofuna kudwala, pomwe kupambana komwe ndidapeza ndikuletsa nawo kumangokhala kovuta. Mpumulo ndi kumva chisoni zinakhala pafupifupi zofanana.

Ndinazindikira Overeaters Anonymous (OA) - {textend} pulogalamu ya magawo 12 yotseguka kwa anthu omwe ali ndi matenda amisala okhudzana ndi zakudya - {textend} miyezi ingapo ndisanafike kumapeto, omwe nthawi zambiri amatchedwa "thanthwe" kuchira.

Kwa ine, mphindi yofookayi ndimayang'ana "njira zopweteka zodzipha" ndikamabowolera chakudya m'kamwa mwanga patatha masiku angapo ndikumwa mopitirira muyeso.

Ndinkakonda kwambiri kutengeka ndikukakamira kotero ndidawopa kuti sindidzathawa.

Pambuyo pake, ndimasiya kupita kumisonkhano mobwerezabwereza mpaka kanayi kapena kasanu pamlungu, nthawi zina kuyenda maola angapo patsiku kumadera osiyanasiyana ku London. Ndinakhala ndikupuma OA kwa pafupifupi zaka ziwiri.

Misonkhano imandipangitsa kudzipatula. Monga bulimic, ndidakhalapo m'maiko awiri: dziko lodzinyenga pomwe ndidayikidwa bwino ndikukwaniritsa bwino, komanso lomwe limakhudzana ndimakhalidwe anga okhumudwa, momwe ndimamverera kuti ndimamira nthawi zonse.

Zinsinsi zimamveka ngati mnzanga wapamtima, koma ku OA, mwadzidzidzi ndimagawana zomwe zakhala zikuchitika kwa nthawi yayitali ndi ena omwe adapulumuka ndikumamvera nkhani ngati zanga.

Kwa nthawi yoyamba patapita nthawi yayitali, ndinamva kulumikizana komwe matenda anga adandilepheretsa kwazaka zambiri. Pamsonkhano wanga wachiwiri, ndidakumana ndi omwe adandithandizira - {textend} mayi wofatsa wopirira ngati woyera - {textend} yemwe adandilangiza ndikunditsogolera ndikuchira.

Ndinavomereza mbali zina za pulogalamu zomwe poyamba zinapangitsa kuti anthu asamamvere, zomwe zinali zovuta kwambiri kukhala kugonjera “munthu wamphamvu.” Sindinali wotsimikiza zomwe ndimakhulupirira kapena momwe ndingafotokozere, koma zinalibe kanthu. Ndinkagwada tsiku lililonse ndikupempha kuti andithandize. Ndidapemphera kuti pamapeto pake ndithane ndi mavuto omwe ndakhala nawo kwa nthawi yayitali.

Kwa ine, zidakhala chizindikiro chovomereza kuti sindingathe kuthana ndi matendawa ndekha, ndipo ndinali wofunitsitsa kuchita chilichonse chomwe ndingafune kuti ndikhale bwino.

Kudziletsa - {textend} mfundo yayikulu ya OA - {textend} idandipatsa mpata wokumbukira momwe zimakhalira kuyankha njala ndikudya osadzimvanso mlandu. Ndinkatsata dongosolo lofananira lakudya katatu patsiku. Ndinapewa zizolowezi zonga zosokoneza bongo, ndikuchepetsa zakudya zomwe zimayambitsa mowa. Tsiku lililonse osaletsa, kumwa kwambiri, kapena kusesa mwadzidzidzi kumangokhala ngati chozizwitsa.

Koma nditayambiranso kukhala ndi moyo wabwinobwino, zina mwa pulogalamuyi zidakhala zovuta kuvomereza.

Makamaka, kuyipitsa zakudya zinazake, komanso lingaliro loti kudziletsa kwathunthu ndiyo njira yokhayo yopezera chakudya chosasokonezeka.

Ndidamva anthu omwe akhala akuchira kwazaka zambiri amadzitcha kuti ndi osokoneza. Ndidamvetsetsa kufunitsitsa kwawo kutsutsa nzeru zomwe zidapulumutsa miyoyo yawo, koma ndidakayikira ngati zinali zothandiza komanso zowona mtima kuti ndipitilize kukhazikika pazomwe ndimamva ngati mantha - {textend} kuopa kubwerera, mantha osadziwika.

Ndinazindikira kuti kuwongolera kunali pamtima poti ndichiritse, monga momwe zimakhalira kale ndikamadwala.

Kukhazikika komweko komwe kunandithandiza kukhazikitsa ubale wathanzi ndi chakudya kunayamba kukhala kovuta, ndipo chododometsa kwambiri, kumamverera kuti sikugwirizana ndi moyo wabwino womwe ndimaganizira ndekha.

Wondithandizira adandichenjeza za matenda omwe amabwereranso osatsatira mosamalitsa pulogalamuyi, koma ndidakhulupirira kuti kusanthula ndikotheka kwa ine ndikuti kuchira kwathunthu ndikotheka.

Chifukwa chake, ndidaganiza zosiya OA. Pang'ono ndi pang'ono ndinasiya kupita kumisonkhano. Ndinayamba kudya zakudya "zoletsedwa" pang'ono. Sindinatsatiranso malangizo owongoleredwa pakudya. Dziko langa silinagwa mozungulira ine ndipo sindinabwererenso kuzinthu zosagwira ntchito, koma ndinayamba kugwiritsa ntchito zida zatsopano ndi njira zothandizira njira yanga yatsopano kuti ndichiritse.

Nthawi zonse ndimayamika OA komanso wondithandizira chifukwa chonditulutsa mu dzenje lakuda pomwe zimawoneka ngati palibe njira.

Njira yakuda ndi yoyera mosakayikira ili ndi mphamvu zake. Zitha kukhala zothandiza kwambiri kuti muchepetse zizolowezi zosokoneza bongo, komanso zandithandiza kuti ndisiye njira zowopsa komanso zozikika mwakuya, monga kudya kwambiri ndi kuyeretsa.

Kudziletsa komanso kukonzekera zochitika zadzidzidzi zitha kukhala gawo lothandiza kuti ena azichira kwanthawi yayitali, kuwapangitsa kuti azisunga mutu wawo pamwamba pamadzi. Koma ulendo wanga wandiphunzitsa kuti kuchira ndi njira yaumwini yomwe imawoneka ndikugwira ntchito mosiyana kwa aliyense, ndipo imatha kusintha magawo osiyanasiyana m'miyoyo yathu.

Lero, ndikupitiliza kudya moyenera.Ndimayesetsa kukhalabe wosazindikira zolinga zanga ndi zolinga zanga, ndikutsutsa malingaliro opanda pake kapena opanda kanthu omwe andipangitsa kuti ndikhale wokhumudwa kwanthawi yayitali.

Zina mwazigawo za 12-zomwe zikupezekabe m'moyo wanga, kuphatikiza kusinkhasinkha, kupemphera, ndikukhala "tsiku limodzi nthawi imodzi." Tsopano ndasankha kuthana ndi zowawa zanga mwachindunji kudzera mu chithandizo ndi kudzisamalira, pozindikira kuti chidwi choletsa kapena kumwa kwambiri ndi chizindikiro chakuti china chake sichili bwino mumtima.

Ndamva "nkhani zopambana" zambiri za OA monga momwe ndidamvera zosakhazikika, komabe, pulogalamuyi imadzudzulidwa chifukwa cha mafunso ake.

OA, ya ine, inagwira ntchito chifukwa inandithandiza kulandira chithandizo kuchokera kwa ena pamene ndinkafuna kwambiri, kutenga gawo lofunikira kuthana ndi matenda owopsa.

Komabe, kuchokapo ndikukumbatira kusamvetsetsa kwakhala gawo lamphamvu paulendo wanga waku machiritso. Ndaphunzira kuti nthawi zina ndikofunikira kudzidalira kuti muyambe mutu watsopano, m'malo mokakamizidwa kumamatira nkhani yomwe sigwiranso ntchito.

Ziba ndi wolemba komanso wofufuza wochokera ku London yemwe ali ndi mbiri ya nzeru, zamaganizidwe, komanso thanzi lamisala. Amakondanso kuthana ndi manyazi okhudzana ndi matenda amisala ndikupangitsa kuti kafukufuku wamaganizidwe afikire anthu onse. Nthawi zina, amawunikira mwezi ngati woyimba. Dziwani zambiri kudzera patsamba lake ndikumutsata pa Twitter.