Opaleshoni Yomwe Inasintha Thupi Langa Kosatha

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Nditamva kuti ndikufunika opaleshoni ya m’mimba kuti ndichotse chotupa chofanana ndi mavwende m’chibaliro changa, ndinakhumudwa kwambiri. Sikunali kukhudzika komwe kungakhudze chonde kwanga komwe kunandidetsa nkhawa. Chinali chilonda.

Kuchita opareshoni kuti muchotse choletsa ichi, koma chachikulu, chimakhala chofanana ndi kukhala ndi gawo la C. Monga mkazi wosakwatiwa, wazaka 32 zakubadwa, ndidadandaula kuti mwamuna wotsatira kudzandiwona ndili maliseche sangakhale amene adalumbira kuti amandikonda ndikudwala komanso wathanzi, kapena ngakhale chibwenzi chokoma chomwe amawerenga. ine ndili pabedi ndikuchira. Ndinkadana ndi lingaliro lakuwoneka ngati kuti ndikhala ndi mwana pomwe chomwe ndimakhala ndikakhala chotupa.

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Nthaŵi zonse ndinali wosamala kwambiri kupeŵa kuvulazidwa, kukonza moyo umene unasiya khungu langa lokongola losaipitsidwa ndi kudetsedwa kulikonse. Zedi, ndinali ndi zotupa zazing'ono ndi mikwingwirima m'moyo wanga. Zilonda. Tan mizere. Koma zipsera zosavomerezeka zinali zakanthawi. Ndinawona chilonda chomwe chinali pafupi pa mzere wanga wa bikini ngati mng'alu wa fupa china, kupanda ungwiro kosayenera komwe kumandipangitsa kuti ndiwoneke ndikumva ngati katundu wowonongeka.

Nditayamba kudana ndi thupi langa moyo wanga wonse, ndinangoyamba kumva bwino pakhungu langa. Chaka chatha, ndidataya mapaundi 40, ndikudzisintha pang'onopang'ono kuchoka ku XL kupita ku XS. Nditadziyang'ana pagalasi, ndinamva wokongola komanso wachikazi kwa nthawi yoyamba m'moyo wanga. Kenako, usiku wina ndili pabedi, ndinamva fupa la m’chiuno mwanga—kutuluka fupa lolimba la m’chuuno kupita ku lina.

Nditazindikira kuti ndili ndi matendawa, ndinali ndi nkhawa za kuopsa kwa opaleshoniyi komanso masabata atatsala pang'ono kuchira. Ndinali ndisanalowepo mpeniwo ndipo zinkandichititsa mantha kwambiri ndikaganizira kuti chitsamba cha dokotala chinkandicheka n’kugwira ziwalo zanga zamkati. Atandigonetsa, amandiika chubu kukhosi panga ndi kulowetsa catheter. Zonse zinkawoneka ngati zankhanza komanso zophwanya malamulo. Chowona kuti ichi chinali chizolowezi, komanso chomwe chingachiritse thupi langa, sichinali chitonthozo. Ndimamva kuti ndaperekedwa ndi chiberekero changa.

Pakati pa nkhawa zonsezi, zipserazo zinandizunza koposa. Poganizira zokumana nazo zamtsogolo zamtsogolo, ndidadziwa kuti ndikakamizika kufotokoza za chipsera - ndipo nkhani ya chotupa sichabwino. Mnzanga wakale, Brian, anayesa kunditonthoza; adanditsimikizira kuti chizindikirochi sichingandipangitse kukhala wokongola pamaso pa mnzanga wamtsogolo, yemwe angandikonde chifukwa cha zipsera ndi zonse. Ndinadziwa kuti anali kunena zoona. Koma ngakhale chibwenzi chongopeka chimenechi sichikanandisamala, ndinatero. Kodi ndingathe kukondanso thupi langa?

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Patatsala milungu ingapo kuti ndichite opareshoni, ndinawerenga Angelina Jolie-Pitt's op-ed in Nyuzipepala ya New York Times, wonena za kuchotsedwa kwaposachedwa kwa mazira ndi mazira. Zinali zotsatira za chidutswa chomwe adalemba kuti adasankha kuchitidwa maopaleshoni awiri opatsirana ndi zotsatira zoyipa kuposa zanga. Adalemba kuti sizinali zophweka, "Koma ndizotheka kuwongolera ndikuthana ndi vuto lililonse lathanzi," ndikuwonjezera kuti zochitika ngati izi zinali gawo la moyo ndipo "palibe choyenera kuopedwa." Mawu ake anali otchinga kukhazika pansi mantha anga ndi kusatsimikizika. Mwa chitsanzo chachisomo, adandiphunzitsa tanthauzo la kukhala mkazi wamphamvu; mkazi wa zipsera.

Ndinafunikirabe kulira kutayika kwa thupi langa monga ndimadziwira. Zinkawona kuti ndikofunikira kuyerekeza zisanachitike komanso pambuyo pake. Mnzanga amene ndimagona naye m'chipindacho adapempha kuti andijambulitse, momwe ndimadzakhala wamaliseche. "Uli ndi thupi labwino kwambiri," adatero ndikulola chovala changa cha terry chovala choyera kugwera pansi. Sanayang'ane mawonekedwe anga kapena kuyang'ana kwambiri zolakwa zanga. Chifukwa chiyani sindinkawona thupi langa momwe amawonera?

Nditadzuka kuchokera ku opaleshoni, chinthu choyamba chimene ndinafunsa chinali kukula kwake kwenikweni kwa chotupacho. Monga makanda omwe ali mu utero, zotupa nthawi zambiri zimafananizidwa ndi zipatso ndi ndiwo zamasamba kuti zipereke mawonekedwe osavuta. Vwende la uchi ndi pafupifupi masentimita 16 m'litali. Chotupa changa chinali ndi zaka 17. Amayi anga amaganiza kuti ndikuseka pomwe ndidawakakamiza kuti apite kukagula golosale yapafupi kuti akagule chisa cha uchi kuti nditha kutenga chithunzi changa nditachikula ngati mwana wakhanda pakama wanga wachipatala. Ndinkafuna chithandizo ndipo ndinkafuna kupempha m'njira yosavuta polemba chilengezo cha kubadwa kwabodza pa Facebook.

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Patatha milungu isanu ndi umodzi, ndinayeretsedwa kuti ndiyambenso kuchita zinthu wamba, kuphatikizapo kugonana. Pa phwando la kubadwa kwa bwenzi lake pitbull, Celeste, ndidakhala usiku wonse ndikucheza ndi mzanga yemwe anali mtawuni kumapeto kwa sabata. Iye anali wosavuta kulankhula naye ndipo anali kumvetsera mwachidwi. Tinayankhula zakulemba, maubale, komanso kuyenda. Ndinamuuza za opaleshoni yanga. Anandipsompsona kukhitchini pamene phwandolo linali kutha, ndipo atandifunsa ngati ndikufuna kupita kwina, ndinamuyankha.

Titafika pa hotela yake yokongola kwambiri ku Beverly Hills, ndinamuuza kuti ndikufuna kusamba ndipo ndinalowa m’bafa lalikulu loyera. Kutseka chitseko kumbuyo kwanga, ndinapumira mwamphamvu. Ndinayang'ana mawonekedwe anga pakalilore pomwe ndimavula. Wamaliseche, kupatula bandeji la Scar Away lomwe laphimba pamimba panga, ndidapumira kwinanso ndikupukuta chingwe cha silicone kutali ndi thupi langa, ndikuwonetsa mzere wopyapyala, wapinki. Ndinayima pamenepo ndikuyang'ana thupi lomwe linkawonekera mmbuyo kwa ine, pamimba yanga yotupa komanso chilonda chomwe ndinkakhala ndikuyang'anira tsiku ndi tsiku kuti ndisinthe. Ndinadziyang'ana m'maso mwanga, ndikufuna kulimbikitsidwa. Ndiwe wamphamvu kuposa momwe umawonekera.

"Tiyenera kuzichedwa," ndinamuuza. Sindinadziwe momwe ndingamvere komanso momwe thupi langa lingathere. Anali waulemu ndipo anali kundifunsa kuti awone ngati ndili bwino, ndipo ndinali. "Muli ndi thupi lalikulu," adatero. "Zowona?" Ndidafunsa. Ndinafuna kutsutsa - koma chilonda, kutupa. Anandidula ndisanakangane ndipo ndinasiya kuyamikako kugwera pakhungu langa, pamimba komanso m'chiuno. "Chilonda chako chazizira," adatero. Sananene kuti, "Sizoipa choncho," kapena, "Zidzatha," kapena "Zilibe kanthu." Anati kunali kozizira. Sanandichite ngati ndathyoka. Amanditenga ngati munthu, munthu wokongola mkati ndi kunja.

Ndidakhala nthawi yayitali ndikudandaula zakusatetezeka ndi munthu watsopano, koma zomwe zidandichitikirazo zidandipatsa mphamvu. Zinali zomasula, kusiya lingaliro lakuti ndinafunika kuyang'ana njira ina kuti ndiwonedwe.

Nthawi yotsatira ndinayima wamaliseche kutsogolo kwa galasi losambira, ndinamva mosiyana. Ndinawona kuti ndimamwetulira. Bala likadapitilizabe kuchira, momwemonso ine-koma sindinadane nalo. Sizinalinso ngati chilema, koma chilonda chankhondo, chondikumbutsa monyadira za mphamvu zanga ndi kupirira kwanga. Ndinakumana ndi vuto linalake ndipo ndinapulumuka. Ndimayang'ana kwambiri zowawa zomwe sindinathe kuzindikira ndikuzindikira mphamvu yodabwitsa ya thupi langa yochiritsa.

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