Pamene mtsikana ali ndi khansa

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SHAPE akusimba ndi chisoni kuti wolemba Kelly Golat, 24, anamwalira ndi khansa pa Nov. 20, 2002. Ambiri a inu munatiuza momwe munalimbikitsidwira ndi nkhani yaumwini ya Kelly, "Pamene Mkazi Wachinyamata Ali ndi Khansa (Time Out, August), yomwe ikuwonetsedwa. Pansipa. Kelly adafotokoza momwe kupezeka ndi khansa yoopsa ya khansa kumamupatsanso kuyamikiranso kwakanthawi kwakanthawi kocheza ndi abale ake komanso abwenzi. : Ndimapemphera tsiku lililonse chifukwa cha chozizwitsa cha moyo ... Kenako ndimazindikira kuti ndikukhala momwemo pakadali pano. " Madandaulo athu apita kwa banja lake.

Ndili ndi zaka 24. Pa Meyi 18, 2001, dokotala wanga anandiuza kuti ndili ndi khansa. Malignant melanoma. X-ray inasonyeza chotupa chofanana ndi lalanje chitakhala pamwamba pa mapapo anga. Kupima kwina kunasonyeza zotupa zazing’ono zingapo m’chiŵindi changa. Chodabwitsa chinali chakuti ndinalibe zotupa pakhungu.

Chifukwa chiyani ndidapeza izi? Iwo sankadziwa. Ndinazipeza bwanji? Iwo sakanakhoza kundiuza ine. Pambuyo pa mafunso onse ndi mayesero, yankho lokhalo limene madokotala anapereka linali, "Kelly, ndiwe vuto lodabwitsa."

Zodabwitsa. Mawu amodzi omwe akuwoneka kuti akulongosola mwachidule mkhalidwe wanga chaka chathachi.

Ndisanamve nkhani iyi ya khansa, ndimakhala moyo wamba kwa mtsikana wazinthu 20. Ndinatuluka chaka chimodzi ku koleji, ndikugwira ntchito yothandizira mkonzi pakampani yosindikiza ku New York City. Ndinali ndi chibwenzi komanso gulu loopsa la anzanga.

Chilichonse chinali m'dongosolo, kupatula chinthu chimodzi - ndipo ndizabwino kunena kuti ndinali wotanganidwa kwambiri: Ndidathedwa nzeru kwambiri ndikukwaniritsa kulemera kwanga, nkhope yanga ndi tsitsi langa. M'mawa uliwonse 5 koloko m'mawa, ndinkathamanga mailosi atatu ndi theka ndisanapite kuntchito. Ndikaweruka kuntchito, ndinkathamanga kupita kumalo ochitira masewera olimbitsa thupi kuti ndisachedwe kupita ku kalasi ya step-aerobics. Ndinali wokonda kwambiri zomwe ndimadyanso: ndimapewa shuga, mafuta ndipo, kumwamba ndikuletsa, mafuta.

Galasilo anali mdani wanga woyipitsitsa. Ndi msonkhano uliwonse ndinapeza zolakwika zambiri. Ndidatenga imodzi mwamalipiro anga oyamba, ndidapita nawo ku Bloomingdale ndikugula zodzikongoletsera $ 200, ndikuyembekeza kuti ufa watsopano ndi mafuta mwanjira inayake athetsa zolakwika zomwe ndidabadwa nazo. Kupanikizika kunabweranso chifukwa chodandaula za tsitsi langa lowonda, lofiirira. Lingaliro lothandiza lochokera kwa mnzanga linanditsogolera kunyumba ya wokonza tsitsi wodula kwambiri mu Greenwich Village. Malangizo ake amawononga ndalama zambiri kuposa malipiro anga a sabata iliyonse, koma zabwino zanga, zowoneka bwino (zomwe simukuziwona) zidachita zamatsenga!

Kutengeka ndi momwe ndimawonekera kunazimitsidwa nditangodziwa kuti ndili ndi khansa. Zinthu pa moyo wanga zinasintha kwambiri. Ndinayenera kusiya kugwira ntchito. Chithandizo cha mankhwala amphamvu chinali kusokoneza thupi langa ndipo nthawi zambiri ndinkafooka moti sindingathe kulankhula. Madokotala amaletsa mtundu uliwonse wa masewera olimbitsa thupi - nthabwala yoseketsa poganizira kuti sindimatha kuyenda. Mankhwalawa analepheretsa chilakolako changa cha kudya. Zakudya zokha zimene ndinkadya zinali masangweji a tchizi ndi mapichesi. Zotsatira zake, ndidachepa kwambiri. Ndipo panalibe chifukwa chodandaulanso za tsitsi langa: Ambiri anali atagwa.

Patha chaka kuchokera pomwe ndinayamba kumva nkhaniyi, ndipo ndikupitilizabe kulimbana ndi njira yoti ndibwerere kuchipatala. Lingaliro langa la zomwe ndi "zofunika" lasinthidwa kosatha. Khansa yandikankhira pakona pomwe mayankho amabwera mwachangu komanso mophweka: Chofunika kwambiri m'moyo wanga ndi chiyani? Nthawi yocheza ndi abale ndi abwenzi. Kutani? Kukondwerera masiku obadwa, maholide, moyo. Kuyamikira kuyankhulana kulikonse, Khadi la Khrisimasi, kukumbatirana.

Kuda nkhawa ndi mafuta amthupi, nkhope yokongola komanso tsitsi langwiro - kwatha. Sindikusamalanso. Ndizodabwitsa bwanji.

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