Momwe Maseŵera olimbitsa thupi Anandithandizira Kugonjetsa Chizoloŵezi Changa cha Heroin ndi Opioids

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Ndikadazindikira kuti ndidzagunda pomwe ndimaba mapiritsi kwa agogo anga aakazi, omwe amadalira mankhwala opha ululu pochiza kufooka kwa mafupa. Koma, m'malo mwake, atawona kuti mapiritsi ake ena akusowa, ndidanama kudzera m'mano mwanga ndikukana kuti ndilibe nawo kanthu. Ndikukumbukira kuti tsiku limenelo ndinatuluka m’nyumbamo poganiza kuti ndapusitsa aliyense, koma ndinabwerera usiku umenewo kudzakhoma zitseko zogona zogona ndi makabati amankhwala omwe anali atapukutidwa. Banja langa lonse limadziwa kuti ndili ndi vuto-aliyense kupatula ine.

Sindinali mngelo kwenikweni kukula, koma sindinayambe kugwiritsa ntchito mankhwala osokoneza bongo mpaka nditakumana ndi bwenzi langa laku koleji, mnyamatayo ndimaganiza kuti ndi "ameneyo." Kutatsala milungu iwiri kuti ndimalize maphunziro, anandiuza za OxyContin, Percocet, ndi Vicodin. (Madokotala oletsa ululu ameneŵa angayambitse kumwerekera mwangozi, makamaka kwa munthu amene akuchira pambuyo pa chivulazo chopweteka.) Mwamsanga, kutengeka mtima kwanga kunasiya kumusiya n’kuyamba kumwa mankhwalawo. Ndinkawafuna kuti ndingomva bwino. Sindikanatha kupita kuntchito popanda iwo. Sindingathe kugona popanda iwo. Ndipo ndikanapanda kukhala wokwezeka, bwenzi ndikudwala ndi kunjenjemera mosadziletsa. (Ngati mukudziwa kuti munthu amene mumamukonda akhoza kukhala ndi vuto, samalani ndi zizindikiro zina zochenjeza za kugwiritsa ntchito mankhwala osokoneza bongo.) Ndikuganiza kuti ndinkadziwa kuti moyo wanga unali pa mankhwalawo, koma ndinkaonabe kuti ndinali ndi mphamvu. Ndidadzitsimikizira ndekha kuti ndimangowafunikira momwe ambiri ogwira ntchito m'maofesi amadalira khofi kuti adutse tsikulo.

Nditafika pachizoloŵezi changa choledzeretsa, masiku anga anali chizoloŵezi chotopetsa chofunafuna mapiritsi, kukwera pamwamba, kukwera pamwamba, ndiyeno kufunafuna kukwera kwanga kotsatira (umene ndi moyo wodula kwambiri). Pambuyo pake, ndinayamba kugwiritsa ntchito heroin "mnzanga" atandiuza kuti mtengo wake ndi wochepa kwambiri poyerekeza ndi zomwe ndimalipira OxyContin. Ndikatero ndimakwezedwa mpaka kufika poti nkutha, ndikumangidwa chifukwa chakuba m'masitolo. (Zinali ngati kuzimitsidwa chifukwa chomwa mowa mopitirira muyeso, pamene udakali wodzuka ndikuyendabe.) Kachitatu izi zinachitika, pamene ndinaitana amayi kuti andipulumutse (kachiwiri), anandinyamula ndikundiuza. sakanatha kupitiliza kukhala monga chonchi. Ndipamene ndidazindikira kuti nanenso sindingathe.

Ndizomwe ndimafunikira kuti ndiyambe kuchira. Ndikanama ndikanati tsiku limenelo ndinadzuka ndipo mwadzidzidzi vuto langa linatha. Kumangidwa kumeneku kunali ku 2012, ndipo kunatenga chaka chathunthu kuti ndipite kuchipatala cha odwala anayi kanayi pa sabata ndikukumana ndi gulu langa la magawo 12 kapena kuthandizira kawiri kapena katatu patsiku ndisanakhale "woyera". Koma kukhala ndi gulu kumbuyo kwanga kunandithandiza kuti ndikhale wolimba mtima. Aliyense mu pulogalamu yanga anamvetsa nkhani yanga. Iwo akanakhala alipo iwoeni, kuti athe kumvana.

Anandithandizira kumva bwino za ine, ndipo pamapeto pake, izi zidapangitsa kuti ndisamalire thanzi langa komanso thupi langa. Ndinayamba kugwira ntchito kudzera mu pulogalamu yomwe idapangidwira anthu kuti achire ndikuphunzira momwe ndingachitire masewera olimbitsa thupi. Nditayamba kugwiritsa ntchito mankhwala osokoneza bongo, ndinaiwala kuti ndimakonda kwambiri masewera olimbitsa thupi. Tsopano, ndimaika patsogolo kuchita china chilichonse tsiku lililonse-kaya ndi kalasi yamtundu wa CrossFit ndi anthu ochokera pulogalamu yanga, kalasi ya yoga, kapena kungoyenda mozungulira kuti musamuke. Kukhala wakhama kumandithandiza kukonza malingaliro anga, ndipo zimayendera limodzi ndikukhala oganiza bwino. Zikumveka ngati cliché, koma kuchita masewera olimbitsa thupi kumandipatsa mtundu wina wapamwamba-mwachiwonekere womwe uli wabwino kwa ine.

Ndikukhala moyo wolongosoka tsopano, ndipo ndi dongosolo lomwe limandipangitsa kuti ndisamale. Ndimapanga masewera olimbitsa thupi ndi anzanga m'mawa kwambiri kuti ndithetse mwayi wopita kokayenda usiku watha. Malonjezano am'mawawa amandikakamizanso kuti ndiyambe tsiku langa kuti ndisakhale ndi mwayi wogona pabedi pomwe mankhwala amatha kukhala chiyeso.

Nditabwerera pachizolowezi changa, sindinkaganiza kuti anthu angandiyang'ane ngati chitsanzo chabwino, koma tsopano akutero. Upangiri wanga kwa iwo ndikuti abwererenso kumisonkhano yobwezeretsa komanso kulimbitsa thupi - chifukwa kumakhala bwino.

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