Kuthana ndi Zolowetsa M'mawere mwanga Mutawotchedwa Mastectomy Pomaliza Zinandithandizanso Kubwezeretsa Thupi Langa

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Nthawi yoyamba yomwe ndimakumbukira ndikudziyimilira pandekha ndikuphunzira kunja kwa Italy mchaka changa chaching'ono ku koleji. Kukhala kudziko lina komanso kunja kwa kayendedwe kabwino ka moyo kunandithandizira kulumikizana ndekha ndikumvetsetsa zambiri za yemwe ndinali komanso amene ndimafuna kukhala. Nditabwerera kunyumba, ndimamva ngati ndili pamalo abwino ndipo ndinali wokondwa kukwera kumtunda komwe ndimamva mchaka changa chachikulu cha kukoleji.

M'masabata otsatirawa, maphunziro asanayambenso, ndinapita kukayendera dokotala wanga komwe adapeza chotupa pakhosi panga ndikundifunsa kuti ndipite kukaonana ndi katswiri. Sindimaganizira kwambiri za izi, ndidabwerera ku koleji koma patangopita nthawi pang'ono, ndidalandira foni kuchokera kwa amayi anga akundidziwitsa kuti ndili ndi khansa ya chithokomiro. Ndinali ndi zaka 21.

Mkati mwa maola 24 moyo wanga unasintha. Ndinachoka pakukhala malo okula, kukula, ndikubwera kwa ine ndekha kubwerera kunyumba, ndikuchitidwa opaleshoni ndikudaliranso banja langa.Ndimayenera kuchotsa semester yonse, ndikudwala radiation ndipo ndimakhala nthawi yayitali kuchipatala, kuwonetsetsa kuti zida zanga zikuyendera. (Zogwirizana: Ndine Wopulumuka Khansa Kane-Nthawi ndi USA Track & Field Athlete)

Mu 1997, patatha chaka chimodzi, ndinalibe khansa. Kuyambira nthawi imeneyo mpaka pamene ndinali ndi zaka zapakati pa makumi awiri, moyo unali wokongola nthawi imodzi komanso wamdima kwambiri. Kumbali imodzi, ndinali ndi mwayi wodabwitsa wonsewu nditangomaliza maphunziro, ndinaphunzira ntchito ku Italy ndipo ndinakhala kumeneko zaka ziwiri ndi theka. Pambuyo pake, ndinabwerera ku United States ndipo ndinapeza ntchito imene ndinkalakalaka yotsatsa zovala ndisanabwerere ku Italy kukapeza digiri yanga.

Chilichonse chimawoneka bwino pamapepala. Komabe usiku, sindinkagona chifukwa cha mantha, kukhumudwa kwambiri, ndi nkhawa. Sindikanatha kukhala m’kalasi kapena malo oonetsera kanema popanda kukhala pafupi ndi khomo. Anandipatsa mankhwala ambiri ndisanakwere ndege. Ndipo ndinali ndi malingaliro osalekeza a chiwonongeko amanditsatira kulikonse komwe ndimkapita.

Ndikayang'ana m'mbuyo, nditapezeka ndi khansa, anandiuza kuti 'O uli ndi mwayi' chifukwa sanali khansa "yoyipa". Aliyense amangofuna kuti ndimve bwino kotero panali chiyembekezo chambiri koma sindinalole kuti ndilire ndikukonza zowawa zomwe ndinkakumana nazo, mosasamala kanthu kuti ndinali ndi "mwayi" wotani.

Patapita zaka zingapo, ndinaganiza zoyezetsa magazi ndipo ndinapeza kuti ndinali wonyamula jini ya BCRA1, zomwe zinandipangitsa kuti ndiyambe kudwala khansa ya m’mawere m’tsogolo. Lingaliro lokhala muukapolo ndi thanzi langa kwa Mulungu akudziwa mpaka liti, osadziwa ngati nditi ndimve uthenga woyipa komanso liti, zinali zochulukira kuti ndisamagwire chifukwa cha thanzi langa komanso mbiri yakale ndi mawu a C. Kotero, mu 2008, patatha zaka zinayi nditadziwa za jini ya BCRA, ndinaganiza zosankha njira yopewera mastectomy iwiri. (Zokhudzana: Zomwe Zimagwira Ntchito Kuchepetsa Chiwopsezo Cha Khansa Yam'mawere)

Ndidachita opareshoni ija ndili ndi mphamvu zambiri ndikudziwikiratu pazomwe ndidasankha koma sindinadziwe ngati ndiyambiranso bere. Gawo lina la ine limafuna kutulukiratu, koma ndidafunsa za momwe ndingagwiritsire ntchito mafuta ndi minofu yanga, koma madotolo adati ndilibe zokwanira kugwiritsa ntchito njirayi. Chifukwa chake ndidakhala ndi ma implants otengera mawere a silicon ndikuganiza kuti nditha kupitiriza ndi moyo wanga.

Sizinanditengere nthawi kuti ndizindikire kuti sizinali zophweka.

Sindinamvepo ndili kwathu m'thupi mwanga nditalandira ma implants. Sanali omasuka ndipo amandipangitsa kudzimva kukhala osalumikizana ndi gawo la thupi langa. Koma mosiyana ndi nthawi yomwe ndidapezeka koyamba ku koleji, ndinali wokonzeka kusintha moyo wanga kwathunthu. Ndinayamba kupita kumakalasi a yoga pambuyo poti mwamuna wanga wakale adanditengera phukusi lakubadwa kwanga. Maubale omwe ndidapanga kudzera mwa omwe adandiphunzitsa zambiri zakufunika kwakudya bwino ndikusinkhasinkha, zomwe pamapeto pake zidandipatsa mphamvu kuti ndipite kuchipatala koyamba ndikufunitsitsa kumasula malingaliro anga ndikuwatsegulira onse. (Zokhudzana: 17 Ubwino Wamphamvu Wakusinkhasinkha)

Koma pamene ndinali kugwira ntchito molimbika pa ine ndekha m'maganizo ndi m'maganizo, thupi langa linali likuchitabe mwakuthupi ndipo sindinamvepo gawo limodzi mwa magawo zana. Mpaka 2016 pomwe ndidapeza nthawi yopuma yomwe ndimayiyang'ana mosazindikira.

Mnzanga wapamtima anabwera kunyumba kwanga patangopita chaka chatsopano ndipo anandipatsa timapepala. Ananena kuti achotsa zovekera m'mawere chifukwa amamva kuti zikumudwalitsa. Ngakhale samafuna kundiuza choti ndichite, adati andiwerengere zonse, chifukwa panali mwayi woti zinthu zambiri zomwe ndimakumana nazo mwathupi, zitha kulumikizidwa ndi zomwe ndimadzala.

Kunena zoona, kachiŵirinso ndinamumva akunena kuti ndinaganiza kuti 'Ndiyenera kuchotsa zinthu zimenezi.' Choncho ndinaimbira foni dokotala tsiku lotsatira ndipo mkati mwa milungu itatu ndinachotsa zoikamo zanga. Kachiwiri ndinadzuka kuchokera ku opaleshoni, ndinamva bwino mwamsanga ndipo ndinadziwa kuti ndapanga chisankho choyenera.

Mphindi imeneyo ndi yomwe idandipangitsa kuti ndikhale malo omwe ndimatha kulanditsa thupi langa lomwe silinamveke ngati langa kuyambira nditapezeka ndi khansa ya chithokomiro. (Zokhudzana: Mayi Wopatsa Mphamvu Uyu Amabala Zipsera Zake za Mastectomy mu Equinox's New Ad Campaign)

Zinandikhudzadi kwambiri ndipo ndidaganiza zopanga zolemba za multimedia zotchedwa Last Cut mothandizidwa ndi mzanga Lisa Field. Kudzera mndandanda wazithunzi, zolemba pamabulogu, ndi ma podcast, ndimafuna kugawana ulendo wanga wapadziko lonse ndikulimbikitsa anthu kuchita zomwezo.

Ndidamva kuti kuzindikira komwe ndidakhala nako ndikaganiza zochotsa zomwe ndimadzala kunali fanizo lalikulu la zomwe tili zonse kuchita zonse nthawi. Tonsefe timaganizira zomwe zili mkati mwathu zomwe sizikugwirizana ndi omwe tili. Tonse tikudzifunsa tokha: Zochita kapena zisankho ziti kapena mabala omaliza, monga ndimakonda kuwatchula, kodi tiyenera kutenga kuti tipite ku moyo umene umamva ngati wathu?

Chifukwa chake ndidatenga mafunso onsewa omwe ndimakhala ndikudzifunsa ndikugawana nkhani yanga ndikufikiranso kwa anthu ena omwe akhala moyo wolimba mtima komanso olimba mtima ndikugawana zomwe wotsirizamabala iwo amayenera kuti apite kumene iwo ali lero.

Ndikukhulupirira kuti kugawana nkhanizi kungathandize ena kuzindikira kuti sali okha, kuti aliyense amakumana ndi zovuta, kaya zazikulu kapena zazing'ono, kuti pamapeto pake apeze chisangalalo.

Pamapeto pa tsiku, kugwa m'chikondi ndi inu choyamba kumapangitsa china chirichonse m'moyo, osati chophweka, koma momveka bwino. Ndipo kupereka mawu ku zomwe mukukumana nazo movutikira komanso zakuda ndi njira yozama kwambiri yopangira kulumikizana ndi inu nokha ndikukopa anthu omwe amapereka phindu ku moyo wanu. Ngati ndingathandize ngakhale munthu m'modzi kuti azindikire izi posachedwa kuposa momwe ndidachitira, ndakwaniritsa zomwe ndidabadwira. Ndipo palibe kumverera kwabwinoko kuposa uko.

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