Ndinaduka Mwendo Chifukwa cha Khansa—Kenako Ndinakhala Chitsanzo Chachidule

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Sindikukumbukira momwe ndidapangidwira nditaphunzira, ndili ndi zaka 9, kuti mwendo wanga udulidwa, koma ndili ndi chithunzi chodziyimira ndekha ndikulira kwinaku ndikuyenda njinga. Ndinali wamng'ono mokwanira kuti ndidziwe zomwe zinali kuchitika koma ndinali wamng'ono kwambiri kuti ndimvetsetse zonse zomwe zimachitika ndikatayika mwendo. Sindinazindikire kuti sindingathe kupindika mwendo wanga kuti ndikhale kumbuyo kwa chosunthira kapena kuti ndiyenera kusankha galimoto yomwe inali yosavuta kuti ndikwere kapena kutulukamo.

Miyezi ingapo izi zisanachitike, ndimakhala kunja ndikusewera mpira ndi mlongo wanga pomwe ndidaphulitsa ngozi yanga yachikazi - ngozi yosakwanira. Anandipititsa kuchipatala kukachitidwa opaleshoni yomweyo kuti ndikonze nthawi yopuma. Patapita miyezi inayi, thupilo linali lisanachirebe, ndipo madokotala anadziŵa kuti chinachake chinali cholakwika: Ndinadwala osteosarcoma, mtundu wa khansa ya m’mafupa, imene inali itafooketsa chikazi changa poyamba. Ndinakumana ndi oncologists ndipo mwachangu ndinayambitsa ma chemo angapo, omwe adawononga thupi langa. Pofika tsiku la opaleshoni yanga yodulidwa, ndimaganiza kuti ndimalemera pafupifupi kilos 18 [pafupifupi mapaundi 40]. Mwachiwonekere, ndinali wokhumudwa kuti ndinatsala pang'ono kuthyoka chiwalo, koma ndinali nditazunguliridwa ndi zoopsa zambiri kotero kuti kudulako kunali ngati sitepe yotsatira yachibadwa.

Poyamba, ndinali bwino ndi mwendo wanga wopangira - koma zonse zidasintha ndikangomaliza zaka zanga zachinyamata. Ndinkakumana ndi zovuta zonse za thupi zomwe achinyamata amakumana nazo, ndipo ndinavutika kuti ndivomereze mwendo wanga wopangira. Sindinavalepo chovala chilichonse chachifupi kuposa kutalika kwa bondo chifukwa ndimachita mantha ndi zomwe anthu angaganize kapena kunena. Ndikukumbukira nthawi yeniyeni yomwe anzanga adandithandiza kuthana ndi izi; tinali pafupi ndi dziwe ndipo ndinali kutenthedwa kwambiri mu kabudula wanga wamwamuna ndi nsapato zanga. Mnzanga wina adandilimbikitsa kuti ndivale kabudula wake. Mwamantha, ndinatero. Sanapange phindu lalikulu, ndipo ndinayamba kukhala womasuka. Ndimakumbukira kumverera kwapadera kwa kumasulidwa, ngati kuti cholemetsa chidachotsedwa pa ine. Nkhondo yamkati yomwe ndimamenyera inali isungunuka ndikungovala ka kabudula. Nthawi zazing'ono ngati izi-pomwe anzanga ndi abale adasankha kuti asandisokoneze kapena zoti ndinali wosiyana-pang'onopang'ono ndikuwonjezera ndikundithandiza kuti ndikhale omasuka ndi mwendo wanga wopangira.

Sindinayambe Instagram yanga ndi cholinga chofalitsa kudzikonda. Monga anthu ambiri, ndimangofuna kugawana zithunzi za chakudya changa ndi agalu ndi anzanga. Ndinakulira ndi anthu omwe amandiuza momwe ndilimbikitsira-ndipo nthawi zonse ndimakhala wamanyazi. Sindinadziyang'ane ndekha ngati wolimbikitsa kwambiri chifukwa ndimangochita zomwe ndimayenera kuchita.

Koma Instagram yanga idalandira chidwi kwambiri. Ndidatumiza zithunzi kuchokera pa mayeso omwe ndidachita ndikudikirira kusaina ndi bungwe la ma modelling, ndipo zidasokonekera. Ndinachoka pa otsatira 1,000 mpaka 10,000 pafupifupi usiku umodzi ndipo ndinalandila ndemanga zabwino komanso mauthenga ndi media zomwe zikufunsa mafunso. Ndinagonja kwambiri ndi yankho.

Kenako, anthu anayamba kunditumizira uthenga awo mavuto. M’njira yodabwitsa, kumva nkhani zawo kunandithandiza monga mmene ndinathandizira iwo. Polimbikitsidwa ndi mayankho onse, ndinayamba kutsegula zambiri m'mabuku anga. M'miyezi iwiri yapitayi, ndagawana zinthu pa Instagram yanga zomwe ndimangoganiza kuti ndigawana ndi anthu omwe ali pafupi kwambiri ndi ine. Pang'onopang'ono, ndazindikira chifukwa chake anthu amati ndimawalimbikitsa: Nkhani yanga ndi yachilendo, koma nthawi yomweyo imakhudzidwa ndi anthu ambiri. Atha kukhala kuti sanatayike chiwalo, koma akulimbana ndi nkhawa, zovuta zina, kapena matenda amisala kapena athupi, ndipo apeza chiyembekezo paulendo wanga. (Onaninso: Zomwe Ndidaphunzira Zokhudza Kukondwerera Kupambana Pang'ono Nditathamangitsidwa Ndi Lori)

Chifukwa chonse chomwe ndimafunira kulowa muzitsanzo ndi chifukwa anthu samawoneka monga momwe amawonera pazithunzi. Ndikudziwonera ndekha mavuto amtundu wanji omwe anthu amakhala nawo akadzifananitsa ndi zithunzi zosayenerazi-kotero ndimafuna kugwiritsa ntchito wanga chithunzi choti athane nacho. (Zogwirizana: ASOS Amatchulidwapo Modekha Amputee Model Mu Kampeni Yawo Yatsopano Yogwirira Ntchito) Ndikuganiza kuti zimalankhula zambiri ndikamagwirizana ndi zopanga zomwe kale zimagwiritsa ntchito mtundu umodzi koma akufuna kuphatikiza kusiyanasiyana. Pokhala ndi mwendo wanga wokumbatira, nditha nawo kutengapo gawo pakukambirana kwakanthawi, ndikuthandizira anthu ena kuvomereza zinthu zomwe zimawasiyanitsanso.

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