Kuthamanga Kunandithandiza Kuthetsa Nkhawa ndi Kukhumudwa

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Ndakhala ndi umunthu woda nkhawa. Nthaŵi zonse pamene moyo wanga unasintha kwambiri, ndinkavutika ndi nkhaŵa zambiri, ngakhale pamene ndinali ku sekondale. Zinali zovuta kukula ndi izi. Nditangotuluka kusukulu ya sekondale ndikupita ku koleji ndekha, zomwe zinapangitsa kuti zinthu zikhale zatsopano komanso kupsinjika maganizo. Ndinali ndi ufulu wochita chilichonse chomwe ndimafuna, koma sindinathe. Ndimamva ngati kuti ndagwidwa mthupi langa-ndipo ndili ndi mapaundi 100 onenepa kwambiri, sindimatha kuchita zinthu zambiri zomwe atsikana ena amsinkhu wanga amatha kuchita. Ndinadzimva kuti ndili m’maganizo mwanga. Sindinathe kungopita kokasangalala, chifukwa sindikanatha kusiya khalidwe loipali la nkhawa. Ndinapeza anzanga angapo, koma nthawi zonse ndinkangodziona kuti ndine wosafunika. Ndinayamba kupanikizika kudya. Ndinkavutika maganizo, ndikumwa mankhwala oletsa nkhawa tsiku ndi tsiku, ndipo pamapeto pake ndinalemera mapaundi 270. (Zokhudzana: Momwe Mungalimbanire ndi Nkhawa za Anthu.)

Kenako, kutatsala masiku awiri kuti ndikwanitse zaka 21, mayi anga anawapeza ndi khansa ya m’mawere. Kumeneko ndiko kukankha mu thalauza komwe ndinkafunika kudziuza ndekha, "Chabwino, uyeneradi kusintha zinthu." Pomalizira pake ndinazindikira kuti ndikhoza kulamulira thupi langa; Ndinali ndi mphamvu zoposa momwe ndimaganizira. (Zindikirani Mbali: Nkhawa ndi Khansa Zikhoza Kulumikizidwa.)

Ndinachita masewera olimbitsa thupi pang'onopang'ono komanso osasunthika poyamba. Ndimakhala pa njinga kwa mphindi 45 tsiku lililonse ndikumayang'ana Anzanu kunyumba yanga yochitira masewera olimbitsa thupi. Koma nditayamba kutsika mapaundi 40 m'miyezi inayi yoyambirira - ndidayamba kutsetsereka. Chifukwa chake ndimayenera kufufuza njira zina kuti ndikhalebe ndi chidwi chochita masewera olimbitsa thupi. Ndinayesa zonse zomwe ndimachitira ndi masewera olimbitsa thupi, kuyambira masewera a kickboxing ndi kukweza zitsulo mpaka makalasi olimbitsa thupi ndi kuvina. Koma pomalizira pake ndinapeza liŵiro langa lachimwemwe pamene ndinayamba kuthamanga. Ndinkati sindingathawe pokhapokha nditathamangitsidwa. Kenako, mwadzidzidzi ndinakhala msungwana yemwe amakonda kugunda chopondapo ndikupita panja kukangothamanga mpaka sindimathanso kuthamanga. Ndinamva ngati, ah, ichi ndi chinthu chomwe ndingalowemo.

Kuthamanga inakhala nthawi yanga yoyeretsa mutu wanga. Zinali bwino kuposa chithandizo. Ndipo nthawi yomweyo yomwe ndidayamba kuwonjezera mtunda wanga ndikupita kutali, ndimatha kudziletsa pa mankhwala ndi chithandizo. Ndinaganiza, "Hei, mwina ine angathe ndichite theka lothamanga. "Ndidathamanga mpikisano wanga woyamba mu 2010. (Zokhudzana: Mkazi Uyu Sanasiye Nyumba Yake Chaka Chatsopano-Mpaka Olimba Atapulumutsa Moyo Wake.)

Inde, sindinazindikire zomwe zimachitika panthawiyo. Koma ine pamene ndinatulukira mbali inayo, ine ndinaganiza, “O, mulungu wanga, kuthamanga kunapangitsa kusiyana konse. Nditayamba kukhala wathanzi, ndidakwanitsa kubweza nthawi yomwe ndidatayika ndikukhala moyo wanga. Tsopano, ndili ndi zaka 31, ndakwatiwa, ndataya mapaundi opitilira 100, ndipo ndakondwerera zaka khumi zomwe amayi anga alibe khansa. Ndakhalanso osagwiritsa ntchito mankhwala kwa zaka pafupifupi zisanu ndi ziwiri.

Zoonadi, nthawi zina zinthu zimakhala zovuta kwambiri. Nthawi zina, moyo umakhala wovuta. Koma kuloŵeza ma kilomita amenewo kumandithandiza kupirira nkhaŵa. Ndimadziuza ndekha kuti, "Sizoipa monga momwe mukuganizira. Izi sizikutanthauza kuti muyenera kuzungulira. Tiyeni tiyike phazi limodzi kutsogolo kwa linzake. Lembani nsapato zanu, ingoikani mahedifoni. Ngakhale mutapita. kuzungulira bwalolo, pitani mukachite china. Chifukwa mukangofika kumeneko, inu ndi ndikumva bwino." Ndikudziwa kuti zikhala zowawa, m'maganizo, kuyika zinthu m'mutu mwanga pamene ndikuthamanga. Koma ndikudziwa kuti ngati sinditero, zidzangoipiraipira. Kuthamanga sikulephera. kwezani malingaliro anga ndikudina batani lokhazikitsiranso.

Lamlungu, Marichi 15, ndikuyendetsa United Airlines NYC Half. Ndakhala ndikuyang'ana kwambiri pa maphunziro a mtanda ndi kulimbitsa mphamvu kuwonjezera pa kuthamanga. Ndaphunzira nthawi yomvera thupi langa. Njira yayitali. Ndikufuna kulemba mbiri yanga, koma kungomaliza ndikumwetulira ndicho cholinga changa chenicheni. Uwu ndi mpikisano wodziwika kwambiri-waukulu kwambiri womwe ndidachitapo-ndipo wachiwiri wanga ku New York City. Munthawi yanga yoyamba, NYRR Dash kupita ku Finish Line 5K munthawi yamasabata a TCS New York City Marathon, ndidathamanga kwambiri ndikukondana ndi misewu ya New York. Kuthamangitsa NYC Half ndikumakumbukira, tiyeni tizisangalala ndi makamu onse komanso chisangalalo cha kuthamanga. Ndimakhala ndi zotumphukira ndimangoganiza za izo. Ndi maloto akwaniritsidwa. (Nazi Zinthu Zina 30 Zomwe Timayamikira Zokhudza Kuthamanga.)

Posachedwapa ndinaona bambo wina wachikulire akuthamanga mumsewu wopita ku Atlantic City, NJ, onse atakhazikika mu nyengo ya 18-degree, akuchita zake. Ndinauza mwamuna wanga, "Ndikukhulupirira kuti ndikhoza kukhala munthu ameneyo. Malingana ngati ndili ndi moyo, ndikufuna kuti ndikwanitse kuthawa." Kotero bola ngati ndingathe kumangirira ndipo ndili ndi thanzi lokwanira, ndidzatero. Chifukwa kuthamanga ndi komwe kunandipulumutsa ku nkhawa komanso kukhumudwa. Bweretsani, New York!

Jessica Skarzynski waku Sayreville, NJ ndi katswiri wazamalonda pazamalonda, membala wa The Mermaid Club pa intaneti, komanso blogger ku JessRunsHappy.com.

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