Monga kholo Lokha, Ndinalibe Mwayi Wothana ndi Kukhumudwa

Zamkati

• Ndidakankhira kupsinjika kwa mwana wanga wamkazi
• Awa ndi mphamvu
• Mfundo yofunika

Fanizo la Alyssa Kiefer

Timaphatikizapo zinthu zomwe timaganiza kuti ndizothandiza kwa owerenga athu. Ngati mutagula maulalo omwe ali patsamba lino, titha kupeza ndalama zochepa. Nayi njira yathu.

Zimandigunda nthawi zambiri usiku, mwana wanga wamkazi atagona. Zinabwera kompyuta yanga itatsekedwa, ntchito yanga itayikidwa, ndikuzimitsa magetsi.

Ndipamene mafunde akudzimbidwa achisoni ndi kusungulumwa adagunda kwambiri, amabwera kwa ine mobwerezabwereza, akuwopseza kuti andigwetsa pansi ndikundimiza misozi yanga yomwe.

Ndinali ndikuthana ndi kukhumudwa kale. Koma m'moyo wanga wachikulire, uwu unali mkhalidwe womangika kwambiri womwe ndidakumana nawo.

Inde, ndinadziwa chifukwa chake ndinali wovutika maganizo. Moyo udali wovuta, wosokoneza, komanso wowopsa. Mnzake adamupha, ndipo zina zonse zidatsikira pansi kuchokera pamenepo.

Ubale wanga wonse unkawoneka ngati ukusweka. Mabala akale ndi banja langa anali akubwera. Wina yemwe ndimakhulupirira kuti sangandisiye amangosowa. Ndipo zonsezo zinaunjikidwa pamwamba panga monga kulemera kumeneku sindinathe kupiriranso.

Akadapanda kukhala mwana wanga wamkazi, atayima pamtunda pamaso panga ngati mafunde amawopseza kuti andigwetsa, sindine wotsimikiza kuti ndikadapulumuka.

Osapulumuka sizinali njira, komabe. Monga mayi wosakwatiwa, ndinalibe mwayi wopatukana. Ndinalibe mwayi woswa.

Ndidakankhira kupsinjika kwa mwana wanga wamkazi

Ndikudziwa kuti ndichifukwa chake kukhumudwa kumandigunda kwambiri usiku.

Masana, ndimakhala ndi winawake amene amadalira kwathunthu. Panalibe kholo lina lomwe linkadikirira m'mapiko kuti litengepo gawo pamene ndimagwiritsa ntchito chisoni changa. Panalibenso wina amene ndingamulembere ngati ndinali ndi tsiku loipa.

Panali msungwana wamng'ono uyu, yemwe ndimamukonda koposa china chilichonse kapena wina aliyense padziko lapansi pano, amene amadalira kuti ndizisunga limodzi.

Chifukwa chake ndidayesetsa. Tsiku lililonse panali nkhondo. Ndinali ndi mphamvu zochepa kwa wina aliyense. Koma kwa iye, ndidakankhira kulimba kulikonse komwe ndinali nako.

Sindikukhulupirira kuti ndinali mayi wabwino kwambiri miyezi ija. Sindinali mayi woyenera. Koma ndinkadzikakamiza tsiku lililonse kugona.

Ndinafika pansi ndikusewera naye. Ndinawatenga kupita nawo kumaulendo a amayi-mwana wamkazi. Ndidalimbana ndi utsi kuti ndiwonetse, mobwerezabwereza. Ndinamuchitira zonsezi.

Mwanjira zina, ndikuganiza kukhala mayi wopanda mayi kungandipulumutse kumdima.

Kuwala kwake kwakung'ono kunkawala kwambiri tsiku ndi tsiku, kundikumbutsa chifukwa chake kunali kofunika kulimbana ndi zowawa zomwe ndimamva.

Tsiku lililonse, inali nkhondo. Osakayikira: panali nkhondo.

Panali kudzikakamiza kuti ndibwerere kuchipatala chanthawi zonse, ngakhale nditapeza maola oti ndichite motero ndimawona kuti ndizosatheka. Panali nkhondo tsiku lililonse ndi ine kuti ndiyende pa chopondera, chinthu chimodzi chokha chomwe chimatha kukonza malingaliro anga - ngakhale pomwe zonse zomwe ndimafuna kuchita ndikubisala pansi pa mapepala anga. Panali ntchito yotopetsa yolumikizana ndi anzanga, kuvomereza kuti ndagwa pati, ndikumanganso pang'onopang'ono njira yothandizira yomwe ndidawononga mosazindikira.

Awa ndi mphamvu

Panali masitepe aana, ndipo zinali zovuta. Mwanjira zambiri zinali zovuta chifukwa ndinali mayi.

Nthawi yodzisamalira inkawoneka yocheperako kuposa kale. Koma kunalinso liwu lija likunong'oneza m'mutu mwanga, pondikumbutsa kuti kamtsikana kameneka ndadalitsika kwambiri kuti ndikati ndekha kankadalira ine.

Mawu amenewo sanali okoma nthawi zonse. Panali nthawi zina pamene nkhope yanga idanyowetsa misozi ndipo ndimayang'ana pagalasi kungomva liwu lija likunena, "Awa si mphamvu. Uyu si mkazi yemwe mukufuna kuti mwana wanu amuwone. "

Mwachidziwitso, ndinadziwa kuti mawuwo anali olakwika. Ndidadziwa kuti ngakhale amayi abwino kwambiri amagwa nthawi zina, ndikuti zili bwino kuti ana athu azitiona tikulimbana.

Mumtima mwanga, komabe, ndimangofuna kukhala bwino.

Ndinkafuna kukhala bwino ndi mwana wanga wamkazi, chifukwa amayi osakwatira alibe mwayi wosweka. Liwu lomwe linali m'mutu mwanga nthawi zonse linali lofulumira kundikumbutsa kuti ndimalephera kwambiri pantchito yanga nthawi iliyonse ndikalola misozi kugwa. Kuti ndimveke bwino: Ndidakhala nthawi yochulukirapo ndikulankhula za mawu amenewo.

Mfundo yofunika

Moyo ndi wovuta. Mukadandifunsa chaka chapitacho, ndikadakuwuzani kuti zonse zadziwika. Ndikadakuwuzani kuti zidutswa za moyo wanga zidabwera ngati zidutswa za malekezero, ndikuti chilichonse chinali chosangalatsa monga ndimaganizira.

Koma sindine wangwiro. Sindidzakhalaponso. Ndakumana ndi nkhawa komanso kukhumudwa. Ndimagwa zinthu zikavuta.

Mwamwayi, ndimakhalanso ndi luso lotha kudzitulutsa ndekha pamisampha imeneyi. Ndidazichita kale. Ndikudziwa kuti ngati ndingakokeredwenso pansi, ndidzachitanso.

Ndizinyamula kuti ndikhale ndi mwana wanga wamkazi - tonsefe. Nditero kubanja lathu. Mfundo yofunika: Ndine mayi wosakwatiwa, ndipo ndilibe mwayi woswa.

Leah Campbell ndi wolemba komanso mkonzi yemwe amakhala ku Anchorage, Alaska. Ndi mayi wosakwatiwa mwakufuna atatha zochitika zingapo zomwe zidapangitsa kuti mwana wake wamkazi atengeredwe. Leah ndi mlembi wa bukuli “Mkazi Wosakwatira Wosabereka”Ndipo alemba zambiri pamitu yokhudza kubereka, kulera ana, komanso kulera ana. Mutha kulumikizana ndi Leah kudzera Facebook, iye tsamba la webusayiti, ndi Twitter.