Gabourey Sidibe Atsegulira Zokhudza Nkhondo Yake Ndi Bulimia ndi Kukhumudwa Mu New Memoir

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Gabourey Sidibe wakhala mawu amphamvu ku Hollywood pankhani yolimbikitsa thupi-ndipo nthawi zambiri amatsegula za momwe kukongola kumakhudzira kudziona. Pomwe amadziwika kuti ali ndi chidaliro chopatsirana komanso samataya mtima (mwina: kuyankha kwake modabwitsa kutsatsa lake Lane Bryant), wosewera wazaka 34 akuwonetsa mbali yake yomwe palibe amene adamuwonapo mu memoir yake yatsopano, Iyi Ndi Nkhope Yanga Yokha: Yesani Kusayang'ana.

Kuphatikiza pa kuwulula kuti adachitidwa opareshoni yolemetsa, omwe adasankhidwa ku Oscar adalankhula zakulimbana kwake ndimatenda amisala komanso vuto lakudya.

"Nachi chinthu chokhudza chithandizo ndi chifukwa chake chili chofunikira kwambiri," akulemba m'mabuku ake. "Ndimawakonda amayi anga, koma pali zambiri zomwe sindinathe kulankhula nawo. Sindingamuuze kuti sindingathe kulira ndipo ndimadana ndi chilichonse chokhudza ine." (Onani Anthu Chidule cha buku la audio.)

"Pamene ndinamuuza koyamba kuti ndinali ndi nkhawa, anandiseka. Kwenikweni. Osati chifukwa chakuti ndi munthu woipa, koma chifukwa ankaganiza kuti ndi nthabwala, "adapitiriza. "Sindingamve bwanji kuti ndikumva bwino pandekha, monga iye, monga abwenzi ake, ngati anthu wamba? Chifukwa chake ndimangoganiza malingaliro anga achisoni-malingaliro akumwalira."

Sidibe akupitilizabe kuvomereza kuti moyo wake udasinthiratu pomwe adayamba koleji. Kuphatikizanso ndi mantha, adasiya chakudya, nthawi zina osadya kwa masiku angapo.

“Nthaŵi zambiri, ndikakhala wachisoni kwambiri moti sindikanatha kulira, ndinkamwa madzi n’kudya kagawo kakang’ono ka buledi, kenako n’kuutaya,” akulemba motero. "Nditatero, sindinalinso wachisoni; pomalizira pake ndinamasuka. Kotero sindinadye kalikonse, mpaka ndinafuna kutaya-ndipo pokhapokha nditachita ndingathe kudzisokoneza ndekha ndi lingaliro lililonse lomwe linali kuzungulira mutu wanga."

Sipanapite nthawi yaitali pamene Sidibe adatembenukira kwa dokotala yemwe adamupeza kuti ali ndi matenda ovutika maganizo komanso bulimia ataulula kuti anali ndi maganizo ofuna kudzipha, akufotokoza.

"Ndinapeza dokotala ndikumuuza zonse zomwe zinali zovuta kwa ine. Sindinayambe ndalemba mndandanda wonsewo, koma monga ndinadzimvera ndekha, ndinatha kuona kuti kuchita ndi izi ndekha sikunalinso mwayi," adatero. amalemba. "Dokotala adandifunsa ngati ndikufuna kudzipha. Ndidati," Meh, ayi. Koma ndikadzatero, ndikudziwa momwe ndingachitire. "

"Sindinkaopa kufa, ndipo ngati panali batani ndikadatha kukankhira kufafaniza kukhalapo kwanga padziko lapansi, ndikadalikankha chifukwa zikadakhala zosavuta komanso zosasangalatsa kuposa kudzikhumudwitsa. Malinga ndi adotolo, zinali zokwanira. "

Kuyambira pamenepo, Sidibe adayesetsa kuyesetsa kuti azisamalira thanzi lake popita kuchipatala nthawi zonse ndikumwa mankhwala opatsirana pogonana, amatenga nawo gawo pamalingaliro.

Kutsegulira zolimbana ndi munthu aliyense monga thanzi lam'mutu sikophweka. Kotero Sidibe ndithudi akuyenera kufuula kwakukulu chifukwa chochita mbali yake kuchotsa manyazi okhudzana ndi nkhaniyi (chochititsa ma celebs ena monga Kristen Bell ndi Demi Lovato nawonso amalankhula za posachedwapa.) ali ndi mavuto azaumoyo ndikuwadziwitsa kuti sali okha.

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